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Little Things Week 6/18/2017

I had nothing that I had to do this Monday but sleep in and relax. The weather was absolutely beautiful, perfect for opening all the windows. Really enjoying my house today.

My only Tuesday appointment at the salon cancelled and now I have an extra day to relax! The weather is soooo beautiful and my back yard looks great! All my chores are done for the week.

I ended up getting on camera Tuesday and having an amazing night, a lot like the short I had written earlier. 

My cat had injured himself a couple weeks back and he is finally back to normal again. I’m so glad to see him feeling better.

It is officially summer and the days are long. I love sitting out back when I get home from work. 

I made it to yoga four times this week and my body felt amazing.

Woke up in a bad mood Friday, heavy with everyone’s shit from my day job. But I napped after yoga and woke up feeling the opposite, like I got a second chance to start my day. 

Had a really good night on camera Friday, got to spend time with a lot of my regulars. I love how busy my room has been since that awesome party I did last weekend. 

I didn’t feel completely drained after the salon Saturday. It was nice to have one of those rare days where people actually make me feel good in the salon. 

One of my clients traded me some bud for her nails and she gave it to me in an Easter egg. I have been calling her Miss Bunny now haha.

I found an amazing bra that fits me perfect and it actually sexy. I also found the perfect pillows for the living room and a really cute top.

I went to the grocery store without a bra on and made like 10 guys almost walk into a wall.

My plants are actually growing! Except the hostas, I think they are getting too much sunlight.

I realized this week that I want to quit my nail job after the summer. I am afraid, but I think I need to do it. 

Little Things Week 6/4/2017

A bit late with this post, sorry guys! It’s been a busy weekend and I needed some extra time to recover. 

I squirted! I knew I could do it.

One of my cam clients wrote me a poem, which is sweet in itself, but when I read it I was actually blown away. It was the most beautifully accurate description of me, I could see how much thought actually went into it. He sees the rainbow inside me. 

Finally cleared the air about the dogs in the salon issue. I win. No dogs.

I noticed an important pattern in my behavior this morning when I started my period early. Before I get my period I spend money like crazy. Must find better way to regulate brain chemistry.

Cleared the air about my “friend” taking my soundbar and lying about buying my tv and stand, which was the deal for me giving it to her. She will be returning it tomorrow and I feel much better now.

I am realizing that I need to speak up when people try to do me wrong and not back down when they try to lie their way out of it either. I had a huge epiphany for the next part of my sleeve after all the annoying things that happened this week. I love seeing the reason for it all πŸ™‚

One of my nail clients said that during her appointment she was able to talk about the recent death in her family and actually cry. I said I was flattered she felt comfortable enough with me to let go and her response was so touching. She said, “Come on, have you met you?!”

I had my best day on camera Friday, and then i topped that day on Sunday! And I got 4 new badges from the site, which are like little milestones. It’s happening and I am present to witness and enjoy it!

 I met someone in my room who is actually really awesome and attractive. Weird amount of things in common with me….

When I started camming, I felt that I needed my nail job as a “reality check” because being on felt like such a different world to me. But really, I was just afraid of how much better my life can be. Now I feel like being on camera is where I belong and the salon is this place I am transitioning out of πŸ™‚

Little Things Week 5/28/2017

I met my mom for a hot yoga class at my favorite studio. It felt very challenging, but I like that.

I made dinner Monday night that was healthy and actually tasted delicious.

I skipped yoga Tuesday which normally makes me sad, but I slept in for the first time since I can remember and I feel a lot better. I need to get more sleep.

I went to calling hours for my cousin and when I looked at her she didn’t really look like herself. She was beautiful and it made me realize how much of that came from what was inside her.

I mowed my grass for the first time since high school and it was weirdly fun and satisfying. It looks soooo much better!

I don’t have a very busy schedule for the weekend which makes me feel good, relaxed and motivated to get on camera πŸ™‚

I paid my rent and all of my bills on time and I still have money left over! This hasn’t happened to me in years!!!!

My cat didn’t wake me up early this morning and I actually got to sleep the whole night through. I feel so refreshed and grateful that he is finally adjusting to my new sleep schedule.

I have been craving healthy foods this week, I’m thinking that hot yoga class detoxes me a bit. I’ll take it.

I took a more advanced class at my favorite yoga studio and it felt amazing! The teacher said I did really well, which made me feel good. I also can’t remember the last time I slept so great.

I had one of my best nights on camera yet and I made most of my money in chat! I had a very successful party that went on for almost my whole shift!!! And I immediately went private when I ended it, a nice long one too πŸ™‚

I started showing my whole body on camera instead of just my shoulders up and I actually feel comfortable to do so for the first time ever. 

Week of 4/30/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

I fell asleep early last night and I think I’m finally caught up on sleep. Feeling pretty great. β˜€οΈ 

Was sitting here thinking how I wished it would rain so I wouldn’t have to mow the grass and then a guy knocked on the door and offered to do it for $10. Hell yes.

I ordered a pizza from a new place around the corner and it came with free ranch dressing. Like the good restaurant kind.

I stood up into a bird of paradise pose at yoga for the first time. So so grateful for my Tuesday yoga teacher and how hard she pushes me. 

My cat loves his new hotel. He wants to play in in all the time, sleeps in it all day. We were playing in it today and he just passed out right in the middle. He is currently chasing a gushers wrapper back and forth behind the curtains. So many things he loves about the new house and it really makes me happy. 

My futon arrived and I had time to set it up before work. I was glad it came while I was at home so it wasn’t sitting on my porch all day in the rain. 

The sun was beaming down through the clouds this evening and you could see all these giant rays glowing. It’s hard to explain what it looked like, but it was beautiful. 

I have been using milk made by a local couple for my lattes and I only find it in a pint size at random stores around me. Well, this morning I noticed a gas station near me sells the milk and they order gallons and half gallons for customers! Finally!!

I finally have my house and all the errands that come along with moving finished!!

It was kind of hard to do this post because i had such a rough week of people taking their shit out on me and trying to make me miserable, but I am so so so grateful this week is finally over and so I can just be home with my cat and finally relax. A lot of people got blocked from my phone this week. Just don’t need it. I welcome new and more positive people into my life now. 

Week of 4/16/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

The clouds were so big and fluffy they looked fake. It was beautiful out today in the 70’s. First time wearing shorts out this year πŸ™‚

I got a table and chairs for my breakfast nook for $20 and it’s really cute–like exactly what I was looking for. 

I found a ladybug 🐞 

Found out I get my keys to the house on Thursday! My friend who offered to help me move just happens to be off on Friday when I want to do it and is still up for it. And my internet is going to be cheaper as long as it’s fast enough and I won’t have any interruptions as far as being on cam. I am so so excited. I can’t wait to move!

I think I’m going to have just enough boxes to pack. I love that I don’t have that much stuff.

I was getting some bud downtown and a group of construction workers were like yaaaa he’s the man! It made me laugh. 

I’m getting so much farther into my twists in yoga. Tuesday class was the hardest one I’ve ever taken. I have never been so ready to collapse onto my mat, but I really loved it. 

Being on cam was really fun today. I didn’t make a ton of money, but I had a really good time and went private with some new people. When I logged off I couldn’t even believe it had been 6 hours. I felt so energized and happy.

My latte is so fresh and delicious today. 

It’s 4/20 and I just realized I can actually post about it on social media shamelessly! I got way stoned before work. When I got in the car to get my latte Bob and Tom were singing the song about smoking weed with Willie Nelson (still funny) and when I in the car again later to go to work Don’t Fear the Reaper was on. My friends and I in high school use to sing it stoners don’t fear the reefer.

Everything about my move went fabulous. I didn’t even have to put any gas in the moving truck. I can’t believe how strong I have gotten and how light all my furniture felt compared to all my other moves.

My cat loves the house so much. He is following me everywhere and cuddling with me and smiling all the time. He loves going up and down the stairs. 

I had been keeping an eye out for a napkin holder, but decided it was a stupid thing to spend money on. When I opened my new cupboards to put some food away there was a brand new napkin holder. 

It was nice to catch up with my friend who helped me move. He genuinely wanted to help; smoked a bunch of weed with me and wanted nothing in return but to hang out with me. I’m grateful to have a friend like that. 

Week of 4/9/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

I got to see my new house today and it is more than I ever could have asked for. I have everything I need to thrive; a garden, washer/dryer, dishwasher, adorable breakfast nook. It’s perfect for me.

I totally got hit on when I walked my cat today. I wasn’t attracted to her, but it was still flattering.

I have three new clients scheduled on Thursday. I have an amazing week scheduled at the salon.

I love this new gel color I have on my nails. It has been matching everything from my clothes to my yoga mat without me even trying and it’s green!

This really hot guy I’ve been checking out at the gym totally looked at me on my way in to yoga. When I was leaving afterwards I saw him again and we made eye contact.

I’ve been getting so many compliments lately on the most random things; my eyebrows, my arms, my voice, my lifestyle and even the slight redness i have to my cheeks which is something I have actually always hated. I think people are noticing my newfound confidence from being a cam model.

A really hot guy messaged me on my Twitter page (for cam) and asked me to rate him. He said it was important what I thought because I’m a model. I was so flattered. In fact, I have had quite a few very attractive men messaging me on there…

My yoga instructor commented on how dedicated I am to practicing. It felt nice.

I saved $30 on Shellac topcoat.

My cat is so fucking cute.

I’m eating out right now and my waitress smells really good.

I dropped in at my favorite yoga studio as a treat and it felt so amazing–as always. I got deeper into pigeon than I ever have before. At one point my teeth were vibrating which is not a sensation I have felt before. They’re hiring for desk yogi. I want the job so I get to take classes for free.

Week of 4/2/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

I received phone calls and/or texts from all of my recent ex boyfriends at the beginning of the week. So random and weird, but flattering.

I had a great shopping day! I only bought things I will use and found some great clothes and had the best lamb for lunch.

I organized everything to be packed and I got rid of everything I don’t use. I can’t believe I am still finding things to give away! I feel so much better knowing I don’t have shit I don’t need.

We got a massage chair at the salon!!!

I bought my mom breakfast and it made her really happy. It was also a really delicious buffet I had been craving all week. So satisfying, but no more buffets for like 5 years lol. So sick.

I was able to push up into a wheel pose at yoga. It was much easier than I expected. I have probably been capable of it for a while now and just didn’t think I could do it. I also received a compliment on my crow, which I can finally hold for more than 3 seconds.

My client texted me to tell me she found a polish color she likes and when she remembers the name she will tell me. A few minutes later she texts again to let me know the color was black. I can’t stop giggling.

I feel so in the flow today, like really in touch with the universe and myself. Just listening to myself a lot this week.

My cat has been waking me up by putting his paw over my mouth and letting his tufts of fur go up my nose lmao πŸ˜‚