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Little Things Week of 8/6/2017

I was waiting in line at the coffee shop drive thru and when I pulled up to the window they just handed me my coffee because they know what I like. I was thinking about it happening right before it did, it was magical. 

I saw my cat catch a fly with one swipe!

I sat at my kitchen table and ate lunch to a lovely thunder storm.

Hot yoga is starting to feel really good rather than sucking my life dry, I am getting stronger every day. 

I had to tell work that I quit today. I feel so much better. I can ‘t wait to get all my stuff and really be done with it. 

I really love the girl who teaches the yoga class Thursday night. Her energy is just beautiful. 

My friend’s cat had kittens recently and he has been sending me the most adorable photos and videos. 

The girls at the coffee shop took a picture of the most perfect rainbow I have ever seen. 

I got invited on a trip to Indonesia!

I’m sitting downstairs with all the windows open. There is the most beautiful breeze with the curtains blowing and lots of sunlight. My cat is smiling in the window. Man, I love my living room so much.

One of my guys messaged me just to tell me how much he appreciates and values me. I am so grateful to have found a job where I am receiving the appreciation I deserve. 

Yoga was soooooo yummy tonight. 

It feels so good to be done with nails!!! I’m not even having people to the house, I can’t even.

I had the most fun weekend on camera and did a bunch of really fun shows. Met a lot of cool new people and reunited with some that I hadn’t seen in a while. I like let everyone in on a day in my life getting ready and stuff and it was really cool.

I felt this like crazy esp thing with some of my clients today, it’s soooo cool to be that connected. 

I finally got over 1000 followers on the site!

I just got nominated for an award at a European cam awards show!!

I had the best weekend online. So many badges, my best day yet, but most importantly I was genuinely appreciated by the people spending time with me. I’m making them feel good in the best way and that’s awesome.

Little Things Week of 7/23/2017

Pay attention to the little things that make you happy. They will begin to multiply into more than you ever thought possible. 

I feel so in the flow of everything. I can see how everything I’m doing is in sync with the things that are happening around me. I feel so happy.

Great day on camera. Didn’t make a ton, but didn’t have to spend much time online to make an amount that made me feel satisfied. I had a really great private at the end. I am getting to know this client well enough that we are having some pretty great orgasms.

I took the hardest yoga class I have ever taken. I thought I was going to pass out, but I’m glad I did it. I’ll go again next week. I think the instructor was giving me reiki. My feet were vibrating in a way I have never felt before.

My neighbor showed up to cut my grass which is really awesome because it looks like shit and I reaalllllyyyy don’t feel like there’s a good time to do it this week.

My cat was sleeping so hard in the corner today all curled up. He looked so adorable. 

I made someone laugh and cum really hard at the exact same time.

I officially quit my nail job. I feel like I can breathe and relax again. I feel excited. 

Today is the first day of the rest of my life and it feels like a true lazy summer day. 

 Ordered a pizza and almost got pop, but it was too expensive. Then the delivery girl randomly gave me a free pepsi. 

Took a yoga workshop and everything the instructor said and all the music she played flowed with the intention I set at the beginning of the practice. Every one of the teachers at my yoga studio vibrate such an amazing energy. The room takes me just about every time I step inside. 

I noticed in the shower how firm my ass is getting. My skin looks better than it ever has in my life, the kp is almost totally cleared up and I’ve been getting lots of compliments from the guys.

This is the most comfortable I have ever been with my body in my entire life.

I’ve been squirting on camera more lately.

My cat is sleeping upside down and his paws look adorable. Also, he just yawned and meowed at the same time. 

I am stopping throughout the day and reminding myself to slow down and just be here. Thank you yoga!

I love how comfortable I have been feeling on camera lately. Others have commented on how my room is like being in another dimension just like I said when I very first started. I love that we are all transported to this special place together. 

I got so many comments on how awesome it is that I am thick and that my body is beautiful. They think I am perfect just like I am. 

Little Things Week of 7/9/2017

It’s the little things that really make me happy.

I made the model of the week list for the first time since I was new. It was only for a few hours, but still….

I woke up 15 minutes before my favorite coffee shop was gonna close and i just made it, phew.

One of the new shirts I got last week is getting soooo much attention online, I’m really surprised actually.

I had a shit night online Monday and I’m lying here feeling just as good as I do on a great night because I can see the dance I am doing and it’s beautiful.

I smelled fresh cut grass on my way to the salon and it reminded me of my dad cutting the grass when I was a kid and I realized I appreciated it all the way back then too.

One of the guys who hangs out in my room sent me the most flattering email just now. I love that the guys dream about me.

I took a belly dancing class tonight and it was super fun. When i started the class everything just felt right–the vibe, the room, the movements of my body.

My only nail client was a no show and I wasn’t even mad.  I shopped a little instead and found some really great deals on stuff that I genuinely love.

I went to a new yoga class and had the hugest release I’ve ever had. We did a short meditation at the beginning and I sat still with tears silently pouring down my face the entire time. I didn’t try to hold it in for the first time and just let it happen. I cried throughut the whole class. But I know it was a release I had asked for earlier that day.

Had another record day. Not number one, but still really good. I’ve been meeting a lot of really cool people.

Rearranged my room and it feels perfect now. Got rid of a lot of clothes and made room for all the new things I can feel coming my way. My room is gonna have so many amazing angles for camera. Shit’s about to get creative.

Took Saturday night off and I am so glad I did. I really needed to just relax after how hard I worked all week and all the new ideas spinning through my head.

Little Things Week 7/2/2017

Good shit:

I felt like I got the best night’s sleep ever… My bed is like a cloud lately with all the pillows I got for it.

Just found out my favorite coffee shop is going to be open on the fourth, yay!

I use to be afraid of what I am capable of, but I don’t feel that way anymore. I am ready for me.

My neighbors have this bush, I have no idea what it is, but it has the most beautiful flowers all over it. They must have just bloomed– they are all different shades of pink and purple and cream.

I got a refund check in the mail today from my old internet provider. Guess they overcharged me, thanks!

I ordered a pizza for dinner and a girl I use to work wish was the cashier. She refused to take my money and gave me my pizza for free. Thank you!

My new glasses came in and they are sooooo cute 🙂

Had a rough few days and didn’t make it to yoga much, but it was kinda something I needed in order to move forward.

There is a special going on at my favorite yoga studio for July and I’m gonna buy it. Unlimited.

I felt really really good at yoga during both classes I made it to. I was surprised because I hadn’t gone in so long. 

I found a bunch of really cute clothes this week, a mermaid bodysuit, the perfect sexy black bra, tanks lots of good stuff..

I had my best night on camera again! Totally random acts of love made my night amazing, like so much love I almost felt unworthy.

Little Things Week 6/25/2017

Some things that made me happy this week 🙂

I went swimming for the first time this summer. 

These new sheets I got are the softest ever and the color looks so beautiful in my room.  They are an amazing pop of color in my room. I had no idea a set of sheets could bring me this much joy.

I got two amazing gifts in the mail this week from my cam clients.

I got all of my errands and not fun things done by Wednesday and the feeling of having nothing to do but cam and chill for five days is the best ever.

I have made a decision to quit my nail job by the end of summer. Being a model makes it harder every week to go back and I just don’t wanna!

I set up my new tv stand and I finally feel like my house is perfectly how I want it. Perfect for me, no excessive things or decor. Everything is functional and has a purpose just how I like it. 

I got online Friday afternoon and people were like lined up to take me private, some of them new to my room. What an amazing feeling. 

Hot yoga on Friday felt amazing as always. I felt some crazy shit happening in my third eye during shavasana. And slept like a baby afterwards, of course.

I walked into my house and just felt so grateful. I really love my life and everything in it right now. I feel like I have everything going for me.

My cat is lying under the sheer curtains as they blow in the wind and smiling sooo big. It makes him so happy, its his little thing.

I had many moments this week where I was able to step back and look at my actions and ask myself why. These led to many revelations regarding my lifestyle and choices. 

Little Things Week 6/18/2017

I had nothing that I had to do this Monday but sleep in and relax. The weather was absolutely beautiful, perfect for opening all the windows. Really enjoying my house today.

My only Tuesday appointment at the salon cancelled and now I have an extra day to relax! The weather is soooo beautiful and my back yard looks great! All my chores are done for the week.

I ended up getting on camera Tuesday and having an amazing night, a lot like the short I had written earlier. 

My cat had injured himself a couple weeks back and he is finally back to normal again. I’m so glad to see him feeling better.

It is officially summer and the days are long. I love sitting out back when I get home from work. 

I made it to yoga four times this week and my body felt amazing.

Woke up in a bad mood Friday, heavy with everyone’s shit from my day job. But I napped after yoga and woke up feeling the opposite, like I got a second chance to start my day. 

Had a really good night on camera Friday, got to spend time with a lot of my regulars. I love how busy my room has been since that awesome party I did last weekend. 

I didn’t feel completely drained after the salon Saturday. It was nice to have one of those rare days where people actually make me feel good in the salon. 

One of my clients traded me some bud for her nails and she gave it to me in an Easter egg. I have been calling her Miss Bunny now haha.

I found an amazing bra that fits me perfect and it actually sexy. I also found the perfect pillows for the living room and a really cute top.

I went to the grocery store without a bra on and made like 10 guys almost walk into a wall.

My plants are actually growing! Except the hostas, I think they are getting too much sunlight.

I realized this week that I want to quit my nail job after the summer. I am afraid, but I think I need to do it. 

Little Things Week 6/4/2017

A bit late with this post, sorry guys! It’s been a busy weekend and I needed some extra time to recover. 

I squirted! I knew I could do it.

One of my cam clients wrote me a poem, which is sweet in itself, but when I read it I was actually blown away. It was the most beautifully accurate description of me, I could see how much thought actually went into it. He sees the rainbow inside me. 

Finally cleared the air about the dogs in the salon issue. I win. No dogs.

I noticed an important pattern in my behavior this morning when I started my period early. Before I get my period I spend money like crazy. Must find better way to regulate brain chemistry.

Cleared the air about my “friend” taking my soundbar and lying about buying my tv and stand, which was the deal for me giving it to her. She will be returning it tomorrow and I feel much better now.

I am realizing that I need to speak up when people try to do me wrong and not back down when they try to lie their way out of it either. I had a huge epiphany for the next part of my sleeve after all the annoying things that happened this week. I love seeing the reason for it all 🙂

One of my nail clients said that during her appointment she was able to talk about the recent death in her family and actually cry. I said I was flattered she felt comfortable enough with me to let go and her response was so touching. She said, “Come on, have you met you?!”

I had my best day on camera Friday, and then i topped that day on Sunday! And I got 4 new badges from the site, which are like little milestones. It’s happening and I am present to witness and enjoy it!

 I met someone in my room who is actually really awesome and attractive. Weird amount of things in common with me….

When I started camming, I felt that I needed my nail job as a “reality check” because being on felt like such a different world to me. But really, I was just afraid of how much better my life can be. Now I feel like being on camera is where I belong and the salon is this place I am transitioning out of 🙂