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Little Things Week of 7/23/2017

Pay attention to the little things that make you happy. They will begin to multiply into more than you ever thought possible. 

I feel so in the flow of everything. I can see how everything I’m doing is in sync with the things that are happening around me. I feel so happy.

Great day on camera. Didn’t make a ton, but didn’t have to spend much time online to make an amount that made me feel satisfied. I had a really great private at the end. I am getting to know this client well enough that we are having some pretty great orgasms.

I took the hardest yoga class I have ever taken. I thought I was going to pass out, but I’m glad I did it. I’ll go again next week. I think the instructor was giving me reiki. My feet were vibrating in a way I have never felt before.

My neighbor showed up to cut my grass which is really awesome because it looks like shit and I reaalllllyyyy don’t feel like there’s a good time to do it this week.

My cat was sleeping so hard in the corner today all curled up. He looked so adorable. 

I made someone laugh and cum really hard at the exact same time.

I officially quit my nail job. I feel like I can breathe and relax again. I feel excited. 

Today is the first day of the rest of my life and it feels like a true lazy summer day. 

 Ordered a pizza and almost got pop, but it was too expensive. Then the delivery girl randomly gave me a free pepsi. 

Took a yoga workshop and everything the instructor said and all the music she played flowed with the intention I set at the beginning of the practice. Every one of the teachers at my yoga studio vibrate such an amazing energy. The room takes me just about every time I step inside. 

I noticed in the shower how firm my ass is getting. My skin looks better than it ever has in my life, the kp is almost totally cleared up and I’ve been getting lots of compliments from the guys.

This is the most comfortable I have ever been with my body in my entire life.

I’ve been squirting on camera more lately.

My cat is sleeping upside down and his paws look adorable. Also, he just yawned and meowed at the same time. 

I am stopping throughout the day and reminding myself to slow down and just be here. Thank you yoga!

I love how comfortable I have been feeling on camera lately. Others have commented on how my room is like being in another dimension just like I said when I very first started. I love that we are all transported to this special place together. 

I got so many comments on how awesome it is that I am thick and that my body is beautiful. They think I am perfect just like I am. 

Little Things Week of 7/9/2017

It’s the little things that really make me happy.

I made the model of the week list for the first time since I was new. It was only for a few hours, but still….

I woke up 15 minutes before my favorite coffee shop was gonna close and i just made it, phew.

One of the new shirts I got last week is getting soooo much attention online, I’m really surprised actually.

I had a shit night online Monday and I’m lying here feeling just as good as I do on a great night because I can see the dance I am doing and it’s beautiful.

I smelled fresh cut grass on my way to the salon and it reminded me of my dad cutting the grass when I was a kid and I realized I appreciated it all the way back then too.

One of the guys who hangs out in my room sent me the most flattering email just now. I love that the guys dream about me.

I took a belly dancing class tonight and it was super fun. When i started the class everything just felt right–the vibe, the room, the movements of my body.

My only nail client was a no show and I wasn’t even mad.  I shopped a little instead and found some really great deals on stuff that I genuinely love.

I went to a new yoga class and had the hugest release I’ve ever had. We did a short meditation at the beginning and I sat still with tears silently pouring down my face the entire time. I didn’t try to hold it in for the first time and just let it happen. I cried throughut the whole class. But I know it was a release I had asked for earlier that day.

Had another record day. Not number one, but still really good. I’ve been meeting a lot of really cool people.

Rearranged my room and it feels perfect now. Got rid of a lot of clothes and made room for all the new things I can feel coming my way. My room is gonna have so many amazing angles for camera. Shit’s about to get creative.

Took Saturday night off and I am so glad I did. I really needed to just relax after how hard I worked all week and all the new ideas spinning through my head.

Dream 7/17/2017

This dream is a blur and I only remember pieces. I am in my last apartment and I walk out onto the balcony naked in the middle of the day. I don’t care at all until a woman with kids comes out on her balcony and then I feel bad to be flashing her kids and go inside. It was really sunny and nice outside and I felt good when I went out. The next thing i can remember is being in a restaurant setting. All the guys I am talking to are wearing Outback Steakhouse aprons and I am walking around in the kitchen. 

Dream 7/2/2017

This dream was pretty bizarre. I am living with my sister and maybe her boyfriend and they make me so angry, like I am really furious, and I throw them out. She is arguing to stay, but I force her to leave. For some reason I make all the animals in the house go outside as well. There is a dog, my cat and a stray that he likes to play with. When I let them out in the front yard my cat is hungry so he starts eating his friend’s leg. I am not sure if she is alive or not, but I can hear him tearing off her flesh and it’s really disturbing. She is just lying there with her leg up in the air and she looks like a stuffed cat now. I pull him off of her and tell him that it’s not okay to eat other cats. 

Dream 6/19/2017

I don’t remember the beginning of the dream, but I had a fight with one of my friends and I felt she owed me an apology. She shows up at my door and when I open it she walks up close to me. The background kind of fades around her and she say I’m sorry right before she jams a syringe the size of a turkey baster hard into my stomach and I have no idea what she is injecting me with. My stomach is cramping and I say, “What are you doing, what is that?” I’m standing there holding my stomach, it’s starting to hurt really bad and then I wake up.