She opens her room for the night, shoulders back sitting tall with confidence. The mood is relaxed, but with excitement. Her crown sits perfectly atop her silky hair, she is the Queen of the night. No one dares disrespect her for they will have at least a dozen men attack them at once. Her admirers surround her like a fortress, ready to give anything just to be in her presence. Her nipples press hard through her sheer bodysuit. Her look is stunning, fit and glowing with natural beauty. Her body moves before their eyes, a display of sexuality and art. Strict and sensual, she guides them through the night, filling them with pleasure and pain. Her time is pricelesss and nearly impossible to obtain. Teasing and toying with them she becomes rampant and filled with desire. She can barely take anymore as the sunrise begins to glow through her window… and that’s when he arrives. To take her away from them all. The only one who sees her deep inside, she can’t hide from him. This fills her with fear and discomfort, but that’s why she loves him–why he excites her. He knows exactly how to release everything built up inside her from the night. One of the many ways he loves to spoil his Queen. Her toes curl in ecstasy as they both reach the moment they have been longing for. He showers her with gifts and love as she curls up in the mountain of pillows behind her and her eyes flutter shut. He loves to watch her fall asleep, messy and exhausted from her work. And so ends the hot summer night, filled with sweat and satisfaction.
A bit late with this post, sorry guys! It’s been a busy weekend and I needed some extra time to recover.
I squirted! I knew I could do it.
One of my cam clients wrote me a poem, which is sweet in itself, but when I read it I was actually blown away. It was the most beautifully accurate description of me, I could see how much thought actually went into it. He sees the rainbow inside me.
Finally cleared the air about the dogs in the salon issue. I win. No dogs.
I noticed an important pattern in my behavior this morning when I started my period early. Before I get my period I spend money like crazy. Must find better way to regulate brain chemistry.
Cleared the air about my “friend” taking my soundbar and lying about buying my tv and stand, which was the deal for me giving it to her. She will be returning it tomorrow and I feel much better now.
I am realizing that I need to speak up when people try to do me wrong and not back down when they try to lie their way out of it either. I had a huge epiphany for the next part of my sleeve after all the annoying things that happened this week. I love seeing the reason for it all 🙂
One of my nail clients said that during her appointment she was able to talk about the recent death in her family and actually cry. I said I was flattered she felt comfortable enough with me to let go and her response was so touching. She said, “Come on, have you met you?!”
I had my best day on camera Friday, and then i topped that day on Sunday! And I got 4 new badges from the site, which are like little milestones. It’s happening and I am present to witness and enjoy it!
I met someone in my room who is actually really awesome and attractive. Weird amount of things in common with me….
When I started camming, I felt that I needed my nail job as a “reality check” because being on felt like such a different world to me. But really, I was just afraid of how much better my life can be. Now I feel like being on camera is where I belong and the salon is this place I am transitioning out of 🙂
The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:
My new coworker and I have the same favorite radio station. For the first time in my nail career I will not be tortured with hits from the 80’s!!
Frank called to let me know everything is on schedule with the new house and I should be able to see it this weekend.
I bought a new vacuum cleaner. I no longer have to sweep in 5 minute increments, I can do the whole room and it doesn’t shut off! Oh, and it actually picks up cat hair. Glorious.
I polished my nails my favorite red, so much happiness.
I feel so strong at yoga this week. I no longer struggle to do a chaturanga throughout the entire practice. My hips feel much more open since I started camming.
Starting to pack a little. Anything I haven’t used since I moved into this apartment is getting donated. Best feeling ever.
Spring weather all week long. The air smells so delicious. 🌷
I may have found a way to eliminate some of my credit debt. I hope it works and actually improves my situation.
I printed some nice pictures of Bettie Page to hang in my room. I am largely inspired by her.
I did a lot of really pretty manicures this week. Lots of nail art.
Thunderstorms all night, so lovely.
I feel so good about the work I am doing right now. Both of my jobs make me feel good about myself and I actually enjoy them.
I finished a box of remover wraps at the salon and had exactly the right amount left.
I was so busy at the salon this week I barely had time to cam.
I hit 200 favorites on Flirt!
I had eggs and rice for dinner and it was exactly what I wanted.
I took my cat for a walk and he was so sweet and well behaved. He’s been really sweet lately, even cuddling with me a little 🙂
I got a message from another cam site wanting to recruit me on Twitter. They said my look will be successful. I know they reach out to lots of people, but it still felt cool.
I found a really cute outfit to wear Saturday night and it looked perfect even though it was too small. My fans all liked it.
I haven’t sat around my apartment bored since I started camming. It feels so much better. My life is so much better. I am growing in a wonderful way.
So… I’ve been hired as a web cam model and I have decided to give it a try. What this means is I will be sitting around in my room waiting for guys to buy a private show from me where I will likely do things of sexual nature on camera. Why would a beautiful, confident woman such as myself want to do such a thing!? Well, let’s see:
- I’m broke and have way more debt than I am okay with.
- I value my time (way more than the opinions of others) and despise the thought of wasting my life away at a job I hate. Money equals freedom and I want lots of money fast.
- I like to video chat with men from different countries in my spare time for fun.
- I see a lot of opportunity; to learn about myself and others, to earn money, to travel.
- At least I’m doing something interesting.
When I look at the other women on these sites, I have to admit they are a bit intimidating. It’s a scary idea, putting my body and my sexuality out there for everyone to judge and see. But it’s only going to be scary for a little while. I’m hoping this will result in several regular clients who enjoy my conversation even more than the sex. If I could make decent money just by maintaining a few online relationships, that would be ideal.