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Little Things Week 6/4/2017

A bit late with this post, sorry guys! It’s been a busy weekend and I needed some extra time to recover. 

I squirted! I knew I could do it.

One of my cam clients wrote me a poem, which is sweet in itself, but when I read it I was actually blown away. It was the most beautifully accurate description of me, I could see how much thought actually went into it. He sees the rainbow inside me. 

Finally cleared the air about the dogs in the salon issue. I win. No dogs.

I noticed an important pattern in my behavior this morning when I started my period early. Before I get my period I spend money like crazy. Must find better way to regulate brain chemistry.

Cleared the air about my “friend” taking my soundbar and lying about buying my tv and stand, which was the deal for me giving it to her. She will be returning it tomorrow and I feel much better now.

I am realizing that I need to speak up when people try to do me wrong and not back down when they try to lie their way out of it either. I had a huge epiphany for the next part of my sleeve after all the annoying things that happened this week. I love seeing the reason for it all πŸ™‚

One of my nail clients said that during her appointment she was able to talk about the recent death in her family and actually cry. I said I was flattered she felt comfortable enough with me to let go and her response was so touching. She said, “Come on, have you met you?!”

I had my best day on camera Friday, and then i topped that day on Sunday! And I got 4 new badges from the site, which are like little milestones. It’s happening and I am present to witness and enjoy it!

 I met someone in my room who is actually really awesome and attractive. Weird amount of things in common with me….

When I started camming, I felt that I needed my nail job as a “reality check” because being on felt like such a different world to me. But really, I was just afraid of how much better my life can be. Now I feel like being on camera is where I belong and the salon is this place I am transitioning out of πŸ™‚

Vision of Love

I want to become a cam star. I love the idea of being famous online and being a normal person where I live, though I wouldn’t be opposed to something bigger. I want to have a regular clientele and I want to be on the leaderboards regularly. I would make so much money I would never worry about having enough to pay bills ever again. I will be taking care of myself like it’s my job–well it is. I will exercise, eat right, get enough sleep and always make sure I have a little time for just me. I will have time to read, study and travel. I will be able to afford regular salon appointments and I won’t mind doing my nails because I will be on hiatus from that career. And I will feel great about myself too. I will love how I look and I will have so much more energy. I will have a really fun life. Tanned from the sun and happier from actually getting to absorb some Vitamin D. I’m going to be happier than I ever thought possible while always staying true to myself. I will have a beautiful natural look that is always on point. I will always stay true to my style as well and I will have my ideal wardrobe. I will always smell of Gardenia Woods and a perfume that compliments it. I will have grown to be much more humble than I am now. I will be much wiser and have learned an invaluable amount from my new career. I won’t live here anymore and I won’t care who knows what I do for a living. I would encourage people to be open with their sexuality and accepting of other people’s. And I will always stay in the flow. In fact, I will lounge in it like a lazy river. It’s where I need to be if I am to help other’s the best I can. So may the greatness and beautiful little gifts continue to multiply. 

Week of 3/26/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

My new coworker and I have the same favorite radio station. For the first time in my nail career I will not be tortured with hits from the 80’s!!

Frank called to let me know everything is on schedule with the new house and I should be able to see it this weekend.

I bought a new vacuum cleaner. I no longer have to sweep in 5 minute increments, I can do the whole room and it doesn’t shut off! Oh, and it actually picks up cat hair. Glorious.

I polished my nails my favorite red, so much happiness.

I feel so strong at yoga this week. I no longer struggle to do a chaturanga throughout the entire practice. My hips feel much more open since I started camming.

Starting to pack a little. Anything I haven’t used since I moved into this apartment is getting donated. Best feeling ever.

Spring weather all week long. The air smells so delicious.  πŸŒ·

I may have found a way to eliminate some of my credit debt. I hope it works and actually improves my situation.

I printed some nice pictures of Bettie Page to hang in my room. I am largely inspired by her.

I did a lot of really pretty manicures this week. Lots of nail art.

Thunderstorms all night, so lovely.

I feel so good about the work I am doing right now. Both of my jobs make me feel good about myself and I actually enjoy them.

I finished a box of remover wraps at the salon and had exactly the right amount left.

I was so busy at the salon this week I barely had time to cam.

I hit 200 favorites on Flirt!

I had eggs and rice for dinner and it was exactly what I wanted.

I took my cat for a walk and he was so sweet and well behaved. He’s been really sweet lately, even cuddling with me a little πŸ™‚

I got a message from another cam site wanting to recruit me on Twitter. They said my look will be successful. I know they reach out to lots of people, but it still felt cool.

I found a really cute outfit to wear Saturday night and it looked perfect even though it was too small. My fans all liked it.

I haven’t sat around my apartment bored since I started camming. It feels so much better. My life is so much better. I am growing in a wonderful way.

Goals

If I am ever going to get what I want, I should probably define what exactly that is. I’m not entirely sure actually, but here are the parts I am sure of:

I want to travel. I want to see as much as I can and have friends from all over the world. I want to meet people that I can connect with on a deep and intellectual level. I want to experience other cultures.

I want to be with a man who truly values me as a person and wants to be loyal to me. A man who enhances who I am as a person and doesn’t need me to complete him, but that I am also attracted to.

I want to have money. I don’t need to be insanely rich nor do I place a high value on material things. I just want to be able to live comfortably and do fun things.

I want to own a home within driving distance to the ocean. I love the ocean and I must live near it.

I want to be healthy and feel good about the way I look. I don’t wish to achieve a specific look, just a healthy one that makes me feel good.

I want to have a great job. I want to wake up excited for my work because I am doing what I love and what I love is actually profitable.

I always want to be working towards being the best me I can be and accepting all of the flaws that are my unique perfection. I want to achieve a total acceptance of who I am naturally.

Most importantly, if these things don’t make me happy I want to find what does.