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Journal Entry 6/20/2017

She opens her room for the night, shoulders back sitting tall with confidence. The mood is relaxed, but with excitement. Her crown sits perfectly atop her silky hair, she is the Queen of the night. No one dares disrespect her for they will have at least a dozen men attack them at once. Her admirers surround her like a fortress, ready to give anything just to be in her presence. Her nipples press hard through her sheer bodysuit. Her look is stunning, fit and glowing with natural beauty. Her body moves before their eyes, a display of sexuality and art. Strict and sensual, she guides them through the night, filling them with pleasure and pain. Her time is pricelesss and nearly impossible to obtain. Teasing and toying with them she becomes rampant and filled with desire. She can barely take anymore as the sunrise begins to glow through her window… and that’s when it arrives. Β Her toes curl in ecstasy as they reach the moment they have all been longing for. She curls up in the mountain of pillows behind her, messy and content from her work, and her eyes flutter shut as she remembers how grateful she is to be constantly showered with gifts and love.

Little Things Week 6/4/2017

A bit late with this post, sorry guys! It’s been a busy weekend and I needed some extra time to recover. 

I squirted! I knew I could do it.

One of my cam clients wrote me a poem, which is sweet in itself, but when I read it I was actually blown away. It was the most beautifully accurate description of me, I could see how much thought actually went into it. He sees the rainbow inside me. 

Finally cleared the air about the dogs in the salon issue. I win. No dogs.

I noticed an important pattern in my behavior this morning when I started my period early. Before I get my period I spend money like crazy. Must find better way to regulate brain chemistry.

Cleared the air about my “friend” taking my soundbar and lying about buying my tv and stand, which was the deal for me giving it to her. She will be returning it tomorrow and I feel much better now.

I am realizing that I need to speak up when people try to do me wrong and not back down when they try to lie their way out of it either. I had a huge epiphany for the next part of my sleeve after all the annoying things that happened this week. I love seeing the reason for it all πŸ™‚

One of my nail clients said that during her appointment she was able to talk about the recent death in her family and actually cry. I said I was flattered she felt comfortable enough with me to let go and her response was so touching. She said, “Come on, have you met you?!”

I had my best day on camera Friday, and then i topped that day on Sunday! And I got 4 new badges from the site, which are like little milestones. It’s happening and I am present to witness and enjoy it!

 I met someone in my room who is actually really awesome and attractive. Weird amount of things in common with me….

When I started camming, I felt that I needed my nail job as a “reality check” because being on felt like such a different world to me. But really, I was just afraid of how much better my life can be. Now I feel like being on camera is where I belong and the salon is this place I am transitioning out of πŸ™‚

Goals

If I am ever going to get what I want, I should probably define what exactly that is. I’m not entirely sure actually, but here are the parts I am sure of:

I want to travel. I want to see as much of the world as I can and have friends in many countries. I want to meet people that I can connect with on a deep and intellectual level. I want to experience other cultures.

I want to be with a man who truly values and wants to be loyal to me. He should enhance who I am as a person without needing me to complete him and be able to respect my independence. We will be insanely attracted to each other. I want to be seen as a person rather than a possession and to really be loved. I want to love someone more than myself.

I want to have a lot of money. I don’t want to worry about money ever again.

I want to own a home within driving distance to the ocean. I love the ocean and I must live near it.

I want to be healthy and feel good about the way I look.

I want to have a great job. I want to wake up excited for my work because I am doing what I love and what I love is actually profitable.

I always want to be working towards being the best me I can be and accepting all of the flaws that are my unique perfection. I want to achieve a total acceptance of who I am naturally.

Most importantly, if these things don’t make me happy I want to find what does.