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Little Things Week of 8/6/2017

I was waiting in line at the coffee shop drive thru and when I pulled up to the window they just handed me my coffee because they know what I like. I was thinking about it happening right before it did, it was magical. 

I saw my cat catch a fly with one swipe!

I sat at my kitchen table and ate lunch to a lovely thunder storm.

Hot yoga is starting to feel really good rather than sucking my life dry, I am getting stronger every day. 

I had to tell work that I quit today. I feel so much better. I can ‘t wait to get all my stuff and really be done with it. 

I really love the girl who teaches the yoga class Thursday night. Her energy is just beautiful. 

My friend’s cat had kittens recently and he has been sending me the most adorable photos and videos. 

The girls at the coffee shop took a picture of the most perfect rainbow I have ever seen. 

I got invited on a trip to Indonesia!

I’m sitting downstairs with all the windows open. There is the most beautiful breeze with the curtains blowing and lots of sunlight. My cat is smiling in the window. Man, I love my living room so much.

One of my guys messaged me just to tell me how much he appreciates and values me. I am so grateful to have found a job where I am receiving the appreciation I deserve. 

Yoga was soooooo yummy tonight. 

It feels so good to be done with nails!!! I’m not even having people to the house, I can’t even.

I had the most fun weekend on camera and did a bunch of really fun shows. Met a lot of cool new people and reunited with some that I hadn’t seen in a while. I like let everyone in on a day in my life getting ready and stuff and it was really cool.

I felt this like crazy esp thing with some of my clients today, it’s soooo cool to be that connected. 

I finally got over 1000 followers on the site!

I just got nominated for an award at a European cam awards show!!

I had the best weekend online. So many badges, my best day yet, but most importantly I was genuinely appreciated by the people spending time with me. I’m making them feel good in the best way and that’s awesome.

Little Things Week of 7/9/2017

It’s the little things that really make me happy.

I made the model of the week list for the first time since I was new. It was only for a few hours, but still….

I woke up 15 minutes before my favorite coffee shop was gonna close and i just made it, phew.

One of the new shirts I got last week is getting soooo much attention online, I’m really surprised actually.

I had a shit night online Monday and I’m lying here feeling just as good as I do on a great night because I can see the dance I am doing and it’s beautiful.

I smelled fresh cut grass on my way to the salon and it reminded me of my dad cutting the grass when I was a kid and I realized I appreciated it all the way back then too.

One of the guys who hangs out in my room sent me the most flattering email just now. I love that the guys dream about me.

I took a belly dancing class tonight and it was super fun. When i started the class everything just felt right–the vibe, the room, the movements of my body.

My only nail client was a no show and I wasn’t even mad.  I shopped a little instead and found some really great deals on stuff that I genuinely love.

I went to a new yoga class and had the hugest release I’ve ever had. We did a short meditation at the beginning and I sat still with tears silently pouring down my face the entire time. I didn’t try to hold it in for the first time and just let it happen. I cried throughut the whole class. But I know it was a release I had asked for earlier that day.

Had another record day. Not number one, but still really good. I’ve been meeting a lot of really cool people.

Rearranged my room and it feels perfect now. Got rid of a lot of clothes and made room for all the new things I can feel coming my way. My room is gonna have so many amazing angles for camera. Shit’s about to get creative.

Took Saturday night off and I am so glad I did. I really needed to just relax after how hard I worked all week and all the new ideas spinning through my head.

Little Things Week 6/4/2017

A bit late with this post, sorry guys! It’s been a busy weekend and I needed some extra time to recover. 

I squirted! I knew I could do it.

One of my cam clients wrote me a poem, which is sweet in itself, but when I read it I was actually blown away. It was the most beautifully accurate description of me, I could see how much thought actually went into it. He sees the rainbow inside me. 

Finally cleared the air about the dogs in the salon issue. I win. No dogs.

I noticed an important pattern in my behavior this morning when I started my period early. Before I get my period I spend money like crazy. Must find better way to regulate brain chemistry.

Cleared the air about my “friend” taking my soundbar and lying about buying my tv and stand, which was the deal for me giving it to her. She will be returning it tomorrow and I feel much better now.

I am realizing that I need to speak up when people try to do me wrong and not back down when they try to lie their way out of it either. I had a huge epiphany for the next part of my sleeve after all the annoying things that happened this week. I love seeing the reason for it all 🙂

One of my nail clients said that during her appointment she was able to talk about the recent death in her family and actually cry. I said I was flattered she felt comfortable enough with me to let go and her response was so touching. She said, “Come on, have you met you?!”

I had my best day on camera Friday, and then i topped that day on Sunday! And I got 4 new badges from the site, which are like little milestones. It’s happening and I am present to witness and enjoy it!

 I met someone in my room who is actually really awesome and attractive. Weird amount of things in common with me….

When I started camming, I felt that I needed my nail job as a “reality check” because being on felt like such a different world to me. But really, I was just afraid of how much better my life can be. Now I feel like being on camera is where I belong and the salon is this place I am transitioning out of 🙂

Week of 3/26/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

My new coworker and I have the same favorite radio station. For the first time in my nail career I will not be tortured with hits from the 80’s!!

Frank called to let me know everything is on schedule with the new house and I should be able to see it this weekend.

I bought a new vacuum cleaner. I no longer have to sweep in 5 minute increments, I can do the whole room and it doesn’t shut off! Oh, and it actually picks up cat hair. Glorious.

I polished my nails my favorite red, so much happiness.

I feel so strong at yoga this week. I no longer struggle to do a chaturanga throughout the entire practice. My hips feel much more open since I started camming.

Starting to pack a little. Anything I haven’t used since I moved into this apartment is getting donated. Best feeling ever.

Spring weather all week long. The air smells so delicious.  🌷

I may have found a way to eliminate some of my credit debt. I hope it works and actually improves my situation.

I printed some nice pictures of Bettie Page to hang in my room. I am largely inspired by her.

I did a lot of really pretty manicures this week. Lots of nail art.

Thunderstorms all night, so lovely.

I feel so good about the work I am doing right now. Both of my jobs make me feel good about myself and I actually enjoy them.

I finished a box of remover wraps at the salon and had exactly the right amount left.

I was so busy at the salon this week I barely had time to cam.

I hit 200 favorites on Flirt!

I had eggs and rice for dinner and it was exactly what I wanted.

I took my cat for a walk and he was so sweet and well behaved. He’s been really sweet lately, even cuddling with me a little 🙂

I got a message from another cam site wanting to recruit me on Twitter. They said my look will be successful. I know they reach out to lots of people, but it still felt cool.

I found a really cute outfit to wear Saturday night and it looked perfect even though it was too small. My fans all liked it.

I haven’t sat around my apartment bored since I started camming. It feels so much better. My life is so much better. I am growing in a wonderful way.

Journal Entry 3/14/2017

So… I’ve been hired as a web cam model and I have decided to give it a try. What this means is I will be sitting around in my room waiting for guys to buy a private show from me where I will likely do things of sexual nature on camera. Why would a beautiful, confident woman such as myself want to do such a thing!? Well, let’s see:

  1. I’m broke and have way more debt than I am okay with.
  2. I value my time (way more than the opinions of others) and despise the thought of wasting my life away at a job I hate. Money equals freedom and I want lots of money fast.
  3. I like to video chat with men from different countries in my spare time for fun.
  4. I see a lot of opportunity; to learn about myself and others, to earn money, to travel.
  5. At least I’m doing something interesting.

When I look at the other women on these sites, I have to admit they are a bit intimidating. It’s a scary idea, putting my body and my sexuality out there for everyone to judge and see. But it’s only going to be scary for a little while. I’m hoping this will result in several regular clients who enjoy my conversation even more than the sex. If I could make decent money just by maintaining a few online relationships, that would be ideal.