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Little Things Week of 8/6/2017

I was waiting in line at the coffee shop drive thru and when I pulled up to the window they just handed me my coffee because they know what I like. I was thinking about it happening right before it did, it was magical. 

I saw my cat catch a fly with one swipe!

I sat at my kitchen table and ate lunch to a lovely thunder storm.

Hot yoga is starting to feel really good rather than sucking my life dry, I am getting stronger every day. 

I had to tell work that I quit today. I feel so much better. I can ‘t wait to get all my stuff and really be done with it. 

I really love the girl who teaches the yoga class Thursday night. Her energy is just beautiful. 

My friend’s cat had kittens recently and he has been sending me the most adorable photos and videos. 

The girls at the coffee shop took a picture of the most perfect rainbow I have ever seen. 

I got invited on a trip to Indonesia!

I’m sitting downstairs with all the windows open. There is the most beautiful breeze with the curtains blowing and lots of sunlight. My cat is smiling in the window. Man, I love my living room so much.

One of my guys messaged me just to tell me how much he appreciates and values me. I am so grateful to have found a job where I am receiving the appreciation I deserve. 

Yoga was soooooo yummy tonight. 

It feels so good to be done with nails!!! I’m not even having people to the house, I can’t even.

I had the most fun weekend on camera and did a bunch of really fun shows. Met a lot of cool new people and reunited with some that I hadn’t seen in a while. I like let everyone in on a day in my life getting ready and stuff and it was really cool.

I felt this like crazy esp thing with some of my clients today, it’s soooo cool to be that connected. 

I finally got over 1000 followers on the site!

I just got nominated for an award at a European cam awards show!!

I had the best weekend online. So many badges, my best day yet, but most importantly I was genuinely appreciated by the people spending time with me. I’m making them feel good in the best way and that’s awesome.

Little Things Week of 7/23/2017

Pay attention to the little things that make you happy. They will begin to multiply into more than you ever thought possible. 

I feel so in the flow of everything. I can see how everything I’m doing is in sync with the things that are happening around me. I feel so happy.

Great day on camera. Didn’t make a ton, but didn’t have to spend much time online to make an amount that made me feel satisfied. I had a really great private at the end. I am getting to know this client well enough that we are having some pretty great orgasms.

I took the hardest yoga class I have ever taken. I thought I was going to pass out, but I’m glad I did it. I’ll go again next week. I think the instructor was giving me reiki. My feet were vibrating in a way I have never felt before.

My neighbor showed up to cut my grass which is really awesome because it looks like shit and I reaalllllyyyy don’t feel like there’s a good time to do it this week.

My cat was sleeping so hard in the corner today all curled up. He looked so adorable. 

I made someone laugh and cum really hard at the exact same time.

I officially quit my nail job. I feel like I can breathe and relax again. I feel excited. 

Today is the first day of the rest of my life and it feels like a true lazy summer day. 

 Ordered a pizza and almost got pop, but it was too expensive. Then the delivery girl randomly gave me a free pepsi. 

Took a yoga workshop and everything the instructor said and all the music she played flowed with the intention I set at the beginning of the practice. Every one of the teachers at my yoga studio vibrate such an amazing energy. The room takes me just about every time I step inside. 

I noticed in the shower how firm my ass is getting. My skin looks better than it ever has in my life, the kp is almost totally cleared up and I’ve been getting lots of compliments from the guys.

This is the most comfortable I have ever been with my body in my entire life.

I’ve been squirting on camera more lately.

My cat is sleeping upside down and his paws look adorable. Also, he just yawned and meowed at the same time. 

I am stopping throughout the day and reminding myself to slow down and just be here. Thank you yoga!

I love how comfortable I have been feeling on camera lately. Others have commented on how my room is like being in another dimension just like I said when I very first started. I love that we are all transported to this special place together. 

I got so many comments on how awesome it is that I am thick and that my body is beautiful. They think I am perfect just like I am. 

Little Things Week of 7/9/2017

It’s the little things that really make me happy.

I made the model of the week list for the first time since I was new. It was only for a few hours, but still….

I woke up 15 minutes before my favorite coffee shop was gonna close and i just made it, phew.

One of the new shirts I got last week is getting soooo much attention online, I’m really surprised actually.

I had a shit night online Monday and I’m lying here feeling just as good as I do on a great night because I can see the dance I am doing and it’s beautiful.

I smelled fresh cut grass on my way to the salon and it reminded me of my dad cutting the grass when I was a kid and I realized I appreciated it all the way back then too.

One of the guys who hangs out in my room sent me the most flattering email just now. I love that the guys dream about me.

I took a belly dancing class tonight and it was super fun. When i started the class everything just felt right–the vibe, the room, the movements of my body.

My only nail client was a no show and I wasn’t even mad. Β I shopped a little instead and found some really great deals on stuff that I genuinely love.

I went to a new yoga class and had the hugest release I’ve ever had. We did a short meditation at the beginning and I sat still with tears silently pouring down my face the entire time. I didn’t try to hold it in for the first time and just let it happen. I cried throughut the whole class. But I know it was a release I had asked for earlier that day.

Had another record day. Not number one, but still really good. I’ve been meeting a lot of really cool people.

Rearranged my room and it feels perfect now. Got rid of a lot of clothes and made room for all the new things I can feel coming my way. My room is gonna have so many amazing angles for camera. Shit’s about to get creative.

Took Saturday night off and I am so glad I did. I really needed to just relax after how hard I worked all week and all the new ideas spinning through my head.

Little Things Week 7/2/2017

Good shit:

I felt like I got the best night’s sleep ever… My bed is like a cloud lately with all the pillows I got for it.

Just found out my favorite coffee shop is going to be open on the fourth, yay!

I use to be afraid of what I am capable of, but I don’t feel that way anymore. I am ready for me.

My neighbors have this bush, I have no idea what it is, but it has the most beautiful flowers all over it. They must have just bloomed– they are all different shades of pink and purple and cream.

I got a refund check in the mail today from my old internet provider. Guess they overcharged me, thanks!

I ordered a pizza for dinner and a girl I use to work wish was the cashier. She refused to take my money and gave me my pizza for free. Thank you!

My new glasses came in and they are sooooo cute πŸ™‚

Had a rough few days and didn’t make it to yoga much, but it was kinda something I needed in order to move forward.

There is a special going on at my favorite yoga studio for July and I’m gonna buy it. Unlimited.

I felt really really good at yoga during both classes I made it to. I was surprised because I hadn’t gone in so long. 

I found a bunch of really cute clothes this week, a mermaid bodysuit, the perfect sexy black bra, tanks lots of good stuff..

I had my best night on camera again! Totally random acts of love made my night amazing, like so much love I almost felt unworthy.

Journal Entry 6/20/2017

She opens her room for the night, shoulders back sitting tall with confidence. The mood is relaxed, but with excitement. Her crown sits perfectly atop her silky hair, she is the Queen of the night. No one dares disrespect her for they will have at least a dozen men attack them at once. Her admirers surround her like a fortress, ready to give anything just to be in her presence. Her nipples press hard through her sheer bodysuit. Her look is stunning, fit and glowing with natural beauty. Her body moves before their eyes, a display of sexuality and art. Strict and sensual, she guides them through the night, filling them with pleasure and pain. Her time is pricelesss and nearly impossible to obtain. Teasing and toying with them she becomes rampant and filled with desire. She can barely take anymore as the sunrise begins to glow through her window… and that’s when it arrives. Β Her toes curl in ecstasy as they reach the moment they have all been longing for. She curls up in the mountain of pillows behind her, messy and content from her work, and her eyes flutter shut as she remembers how grateful she is to be constantly showered with gifts and love.

Week of 4/23/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

I have almost everything put away in the new house and it looks beautiful. I had this vision several months ago where I lived in a house with light wooden floors, sheer white flowing curtains and lots of natural sunlight. I have that now. 

My parents came over for dinner and I made lobster that was actually delicious. They brought my flowers that go perfectly with the theme of my breakfast nook–like in the best way. 

I finally have everything in the new house put away! I took a bath to relax afterwards and the tub is super deep and the water stays warm because it was a whirlpool tub at one point. It was so comfy I passed out.

Having time to cook and make myself dinner makes me feel so much better the next day.

I went up into a headstand by myself at yoga Tuesday. 

For the first time in weeks I woke up with nothing to do outside of my normal work day. It felt absolutely fabulous. 

My new route I take to work is through the park and its sooo gorgeous! Especially now that all of the trees are budding. 

I love watching my cat explore the new house. He is checking out all the closets and old vents. Also, his fluffy legs look adorable when he runs up and down the stairs. 

My co-workers have been feeding me delicious food all week. 

There is a place my my new house that sells a really good tiramisu.

I was not having the best day, but then I got online and had an amazing night, made a ton of money and my friend stopped over to get me high and just gave me like a dime. Wouldn’t take any money for it.

One of the local radio stations had a dj who was playing all this early 00’s rap. It was delightfully nostalgic and made me laugh. 

I love waking up to emails from flirt congratulating me on having one of my highest money making days.

Goals

If I am ever going to get what I want, I should probably define what exactly that is. I’m not entirely sure actually, but here are the parts I am sure of:

I want to travel. I want to see as much of the world as I can and have friends in many countries. I want to meet people that I can connect with on a deep and intellectual level. I want to experience other cultures.

I want to be with a man who truly values and wants to be loyal to me. He should enhance who I am as a person without needing me to complete him and be able to respect my independence. We will be insanely attracted to each other. I want to be seen as a person rather than a possession and to really be loved. I want to love someone more than myself.

I want to have a lot of money. I don’t want to worry about money ever again.

I want to own a home within driving distance to the ocean. I love the ocean and I must live near it.

I want to be healthy and feel good about the way I look.

I want to have a great job. I want to wake up excited for my work because I am doing what I love and what I love is actually profitable.

I always want to be working towards being the best me I can be and accepting all of the flaws that are my unique perfection. I want to achieve a total acceptance of who I am naturally.

Most importantly, if these things don’t make me happy I want to find what does.