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Little Things Week 6/4/2017

A bit late with this post, sorry guys! It’s been a busy weekend and I needed some extra time to recover. 

I squirted! I knew I could do it.

One of my cam clients wrote me a poem, which is sweet in itself, but when I read it I was actually blown away. It was the most beautifully accurate description of me, I could see how much thought actually went into it. He sees the rainbow inside me. 

Finally cleared the air about the dogs in the salon issue. I win. No dogs.

I noticed an important pattern in my behavior this morning when I started my period early. Before I get my period I spend money like crazy. Must find better way to regulate brain chemistry.

Cleared the air about my “friend” taking my soundbar and lying about buying my tv and stand, which was the deal for me giving it to her. She will be returning it tomorrow and I feel much better now.

I am realizing that I need to speak up when people try to do me wrong and not back down when they try to lie their way out of it either. I had a huge epiphany for the next part of my sleeve after all the annoying things that happened this week. I love seeing the reason for it all πŸ™‚

One of my nail clients said that during her appointment she was able to talk about the recent death in her family and actually cry. I said I was flattered she felt comfortable enough with me to let go and her response was so touching. She said, “Come on, have you met you?!”

I had my best day on camera Friday, and then i topped that day on Sunday! And I got 4 new badges from the site, which are like little milestones. It’s happening and I am present to witness and enjoy it!

 I met someone in my room who is actually really awesome and attractive. Weird amount of things in common with me….

When I started camming, I felt that I needed my nail job as a “reality check” because being on felt like such a different world to me. But really, I was just afraid of how much better my life can be. Now I feel like being on camera is where I belong and the salon is this place I am transitioning out of πŸ™‚

Little Things Week 5/28/2017

I met my mom for a hot yoga class at my favorite studio. It felt very challenging, but I like that.

I made dinner Monday night that was healthy and actually tasted delicious.

I skipped yoga Tuesday which normally makes me sad, but I slept in for the first time since I can remember and I feel a lot better. I need to get more sleep.

I went to calling hours for my cousin and when I looked at her she didn’t really look like herself. She was beautiful and it made me realize how much of that came from what was inside her.

I mowed my grass for the first time since high school and it was weirdly fun and satisfying. It looks soooo much better!

I don’t have a very busy schedule for the weekend which makes me feel good, relaxed and motivated to get on camera πŸ™‚

I paid my rent and all of my bills on time and I still have money left over! This hasn’t happened to me in years!!!!

My cat didn’t wake me up early this morning and I actually got to sleep the whole night through. I feel so refreshed and grateful that he is finally adjusting to my new sleep schedule.

I have been craving healthy foods this week, I’m thinking that hot yoga class detoxes me a bit. I’ll take it.

I took a more advanced class at my favorite yoga studio and it felt amazing! The teacher said I did really well, which made me feel good. I also can’t remember the last time I slept so great.

I had one of my best nights on camera yet and I made most of my money in chat! I had a very successful party that went on for almost my whole shift!!! And I immediately went private when I ended it, a nice long one too πŸ™‚

I started showing my whole body on camera instead of just my shoulders up and I actually feel comfortable to do so for the first time ever. 

Little Things Week 5/21/2017

I had the craziest private session on camera yet. I invited one of my guy friends over and he sat in the corner and watched me work. The crowd loved it. It was my third best night yet.

I met someone really cool in my room today. Our conversation sparked tons of ideas for being on cam.

I watched my neighbor help his friend move in. He looked super sexy carrying all that furniture.

I turned 31 and I feel really good about the year to come. I was surprised how many people wished me a happy birthday. I’m obsessed with the scent of this candle my sister got me from Hawaii.

I had a great dinner with my parents and they sat us in the Willie Nelson corner, which was totally fitting.

I heard Peaches by The Presidents of the United States of America on the radio.

I’m feeling much more comfortable on camera lately. I am ready to start studying and improving myself. I think I may finally have my scheduling about figured out as well.

I discovered Shakey Graves.

I had this dream about fucking a guy I work with, pretty great dream.

I looked out the window while I was getting ready for work and this guy was singing in his car, like really into it. He may have been rapping, I couldn’t tell. I also just remembered that I saw a guy on a motorcycle earlier this week jamming out super loud to Wobble. 

When I went in to work my co-worker had gotten me a gift certificate to my favorite coffee shop. 

I rearranged my room and added some color. It feels soooo much better in here. 

I felt amazing at yoga Wednesday despite it being my first class this week. I felt stronger than I usually do.

Happy with myself for not going home early from work and skipping yoga. 

I was out of bud and couldn’t find any and then one of my clients unexpectedly tipped me in bud!

I had to stand up for myself a lot the past couple weeks and I feel good about it for once instead of guilty. The end of my week was rough, but it all led to a big epiphany. I needed all of it.

Week of 4/30/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

I fell asleep early last night and I think I’m finally caught up on sleep. Feeling pretty great. β˜€οΈ 

Was sitting here thinking how I wished it would rain so I wouldn’t have to mow the grass and then a guy knocked on the door and offered to do it for $10. Hell yes.

I ordered a pizza from a new place around the corner and it came with free ranch dressing. Like the good restaurant kind.

I stood up into a bird of paradise pose at yoga for the first time. So so grateful for my Tuesday yoga teacher and how hard she pushes me. 

My cat loves his new hotel. He wants to play in in all the time, sleeps in it all day. We were playing in it today and he just passed out right in the middle. He is currently chasing a gushers wrapper back and forth behind the curtains. So many things he loves about the new house and it really makes me happy. 

My futon arrived and I had time to set it up before work. I was glad it came while I was at home so it wasn’t sitting on my porch all day in the rain. 

The sun was beaming down through the clouds this evening and you could see all these giant rays glowing. It’s hard to explain what it looked like, but it was beautiful. 

I have been using milk made by a local couple for my lattes and I only find it in a pint size at random stores around me. Well, this morning I noticed a gas station near me sells the milk and they order gallons and half gallons for customers! Finally!!

I finally have my house and all the errands that come along with moving finished!!

It was kind of hard to do this post because i had such a rough week of people taking their shit out on me and trying to make me miserable, but I am so so so grateful this week is finally over and so I can just be home with my cat and finally relax. A lot of people got blocked from my phone this week. Just don’t need it. I welcome new and more positive people into my life now. 

Week of 4/9/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

I got to see my new house today and it is more than I ever could have asked for. I have everything I need to thrive; a garden, washer/dryer, dishwasher, adorable breakfast nook. It’s perfect for me.

I totally got hit on when I walked my cat today. I wasn’t attracted to her, but it was still flattering.

I have three new clients scheduled on Thursday. I have an amazing week scheduled at the salon.

I love this new gel color I have on my nails. It has been matching everything from my clothes to my yoga mat without me even trying and it’s green!

This really hot guy I’ve been checking out at the gym totally looked at me on my way in to yoga. When I was leaving afterwards I saw him again and we made eye contact.

I’ve been getting so many compliments lately on the most random things; my eyebrows, my arms, my voice, my lifestyle and even the slight redness i have to my cheeks which is something I have actually always hated. I think people are noticing my newfound confidence from being a cam model.

A really hot guy messaged me on my Twitter page (for cam) and asked me to rate him. He said it was important what I thought because I’m a model. I was so flattered. In fact, I have had quite a few very attractive men messaging me on there…

My yoga instructor commented on how dedicated I am to practicing. It felt nice.

I saved $30 on Shellac topcoat.

My cat is so fucking cute.

I’m eating out right now and my waitress smells really good.

I dropped in at my favorite yoga studio as a treat and it felt so amazing–as always. I got deeper into pigeon than I ever have before. At one point my teeth were vibrating which is not a sensation I have felt before. They’re hiring for desk yogi. I want the job so I get to take classes for free.