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Little Things Week of 8/6/2017

I was waiting in line at the coffee shop drive thru and when I pulled up to the window they just handed me my coffee because they know what I like. I was thinking about it happening right before it did, it was magical. 

I saw my cat catch a fly with one swipe!

I sat at my kitchen table and ate lunch to a lovely thunder storm.

Hot yoga is starting to feel really good rather than sucking my life dry, I am getting stronger every day. 

I had to tell work that I quit today. I feel so much better. I can ‘t wait to get all my stuff and really be done with it. 

I really love the girl who teaches the yoga class Thursday night. Her energy is just beautiful. 

My friend’s cat had kittens recently and he has been sending me the most adorable photos and videos. 

The girls at the coffee shop took a picture of the most perfect rainbow I have ever seen. 

I got invited on a trip to Indonesia!

I’m sitting downstairs with all the windows open. There is the most beautiful breeze with the curtains blowing and lots of sunlight. My cat is smiling in the window. Man, I love my living room so much.

One of my guys messaged me just to tell me how much he appreciates and values me. I am so grateful to have found a job where I am receiving the appreciation I deserve. 

Yoga was soooooo yummy tonight. 

It feels so good to be done with nails!!! I’m not even having people to the house, I can’t even.

I had the most fun weekend on camera and did a bunch of really fun shows. Met a lot of cool new people and reunited with some that I hadn’t seen in a while. I like let everyone in on a day in my life getting ready and stuff and it was really cool.

I felt this like crazy esp thing with some of my clients today, it’s soooo cool to be that connected. 

I finally got over 1000 followers on the site!

I just got nominated for an award at a European cam awards show!!

I had the best weekend online. So many badges, my best day yet, but most importantly I was genuinely appreciated by the people spending time with me. I’m making them feel good in the best way and that’s awesome.

Little Things Week of 7/23/2017

Pay attention to the little things that make you happy. They will begin to multiply into more than you ever thought possible. 

I feel so in the flow of everything. I can see how everything I’m doing is in sync with the things that are happening around me. I feel so happy.

Great day on camera. Didn’t make a ton, but didn’t have to spend much time online to make an amount that made me feel satisfied. I had a really great private at the end. I am getting to know this client well enough that we are having some pretty great orgasms.

I took the hardest yoga class I have ever taken. I thought I was going to pass out, but I’m glad I did it. I’ll go again next week. I think the instructor was giving me reiki. My feet were vibrating in a way I have never felt before.

My neighbor showed up to cut my grass which is really awesome because it looks like shit and I reaalllllyyyy don’t feel like there’s a good time to do it this week.

My cat was sleeping so hard in the corner today all curled up. He looked so adorable. 

I made someone laugh and cum really hard at the exact same time.

I officially quit my nail job. I feel like I can breathe and relax again. I feel excited. 

Today is the first day of the rest of my life and it feels like a true lazy summer day. 

 Ordered a pizza and almost got pop, but it was too expensive. Then the delivery girl randomly gave me a free pepsi. 

Took a yoga workshop and everything the instructor said and all the music she played flowed with the intention I set at the beginning of the practice. Every one of the teachers at my yoga studio vibrate such an amazing energy. The room takes me just about every time I step inside. 

I noticed in the shower how firm my ass is getting. My skin looks better than it ever has in my life, the kp is almost totally cleared up and I’ve been getting lots of compliments from the guys.

This is the most comfortable I have ever been with my body in my entire life.

I’ve been squirting on camera more lately.

My cat is sleeping upside down and his paws look adorable. Also, he just yawned and meowed at the same time. 

I am stopping throughout the day and reminding myself to slow down and just be here. Thank you yoga!

I love how comfortable I have been feeling on camera lately. Others have commented on how my room is like being in another dimension just like I said when I very first started. I love that we are all transported to this special place together. 

I got so many comments on how awesome it is that I am thick and that my body is beautiful. They think I am perfect just like I am. 

Little Things Week of 7/9/2017

It’s the little things that really make me happy.

I made the model of the week list for the first time since I was new. It was only for a few hours, but still….

I woke up 15 minutes before my favorite coffee shop was gonna close and i just made it, phew.

One of the new shirts I got last week is getting soooo much attention online, I’m really surprised actually.

I had a shit night online Monday and I’m lying here feeling just as good as I do on a great night because I can see the dance I am doing and it’s beautiful.

I smelled fresh cut grass on my way to the salon and it reminded me of my dad cutting the grass when I was a kid and I realized I appreciated it all the way back then too.

One of the guys who hangs out in my room sent me the most flattering email just now. I love that the guys dream about me.

I took a belly dancing class tonight and it was super fun. When i started the class everything just felt right–the vibe, the room, the movements of my body.

My only nail client was a no show and I wasn’t even mad. Β I shopped a little instead and found some really great deals on stuff that I genuinely love.

I went to a new yoga class and had the hugest release I’ve ever had. We did a short meditation at the beginning and I sat still with tears silently pouring down my face the entire time. I didn’t try to hold it in for the first time and just let it happen. I cried throughut the whole class. But I know it was a release I had asked for earlier that day.

Had another record day. Not number one, but still really good. I’ve been meeting a lot of really cool people.

Rearranged my room and it feels perfect now. Got rid of a lot of clothes and made room for all the new things I can feel coming my way. My room is gonna have so many amazing angles for camera. Shit’s about to get creative.

Took Saturday night off and I am so glad I did. I really needed to just relax after how hard I worked all week and all the new ideas spinning through my head.

Little Things Week 7/2/2017

Good shit:

I felt like I got the best night’s sleep ever… My bed is like a cloud lately with all the pillows I got for it.

Just found out my favorite coffee shop is going to be open on the fourth, yay!

I use to be afraid of what I am capable of, but I don’t feel that way anymore. I am ready for me.

My neighbors have this bush, I have no idea what it is, but it has the most beautiful flowers all over it. They must have just bloomed– they are all different shades of pink and purple and cream.

I got a refund check in the mail today from my old internet provider. Guess they overcharged me, thanks!

I ordered a pizza for dinner and a girl I use to work wish was the cashier. She refused to take my money and gave me my pizza for free. Thank you!

My new glasses came in and they are sooooo cute πŸ™‚

Had a rough few days and didn’t make it to yoga much, but it was kinda something I needed in order to move forward.

There is a special going on at my favorite yoga studio for July and I’m gonna buy it. Unlimited.

I felt really really good at yoga during both classes I made it to. I was surprised because I hadn’t gone in so long. 

I found a bunch of really cute clothes this week, a mermaid bodysuit, the perfect sexy black bra, tanks lots of good stuff..

I had my best night on camera again! Totally random acts of love made my night amazing, like so much love I almost felt unworthy.

Journal Entry 6/20/2017

She opens her room for the night, shoulders back sitting tall with confidence. The mood is relaxed, but with excitement. Her crown sits perfectly atop her silky hair, she is the Queen of the night. No one dares disrespect her for they will have at least a dozen men attack them at once. Her admirers surround her like a fortress, ready to give anything just to be in her presence. Her nipples press hard through her sheer bodysuit. Her look is stunning, fit and glowing with natural beauty. Her body moves before their eyes, a display of sexuality and art. Strict and sensual, she guides them through the night, filling them with pleasure and pain. Her time is pricelesss and nearly impossible to obtain. Teasing and toying with them she becomes rampant and filled with desire. She can barely take anymore as the sunrise begins to glow through her window… and that’s when it arrives. Β Her toes curl in ecstasy as they reach the moment they have all been longing for. She curls up in the mountain of pillows behind her, messy and content from her work, and her eyes flutter shut as she remembers how grateful she is to be constantly showered with gifts and love.

Week of 4/30/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

I fell asleep early last night and I think I’m finally caught up on sleep. Feeling pretty great. β˜€οΈ 

Was sitting here thinking how I wished it would rain so I wouldn’t have to mow the grass and then a guy knocked on the door and offered to do it for $10. Hell yes.

I ordered a pizza from a new place around the corner and it came with free ranch dressing. Like the good restaurant kind.

I stood up into a bird of paradise pose at yoga for the first time. So so grateful for my Tuesday yoga teacher and how hard she pushes me. 

My cat loves his new hotel. He wants to play in in all the time, sleeps in it all day. We were playing in it today and he just passed out right in the middle. He is currently chasing a gushers wrapper back and forth behind the curtains. So many things he loves about the new house and it really makes me happy. 

My futon arrived and I had time to set it up before work. I was glad it came while I was at home so it wasn’t sitting on my porch all day in the rain. 

The sun was beaming down through the clouds this evening and you could see all these giant rays glowing. It’s hard to explain what it looked like, but it was beautiful. 

I have been using milk made by a local couple for my lattes and I only find it in a pint size at random stores around me. Well, this morning I noticed a gas station near me sells the milk and they order gallons and half gallons for customers! Finally!!

I finally have my house and all the errands that come along with moving finished!!

It was kind of hard to do this post because i had such a rough week of people taking their shit out on me and trying to make me miserable, but I am so so so grateful this week is finally over and so I can just be home with my cat and finally relax. A lot of people got blocked from my phone this week. Just don’t need it. I welcome new and more positive people into my life now. 

Week of 4/16/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

The clouds were so big and fluffy they looked fake. It was beautiful out today in the 70’s. First time wearing shorts out this year πŸ™‚

I got a table and chairs for my breakfast nook for $20 and it’s really cute–like exactly what I was looking for. 

I found a ladybug 🐞 

Found out I get my keys to the house on Thursday! My friend who offered to help me move just happens to be off on Friday when I want to do it and is still up for it. And my internet is going to be cheaper as long as it’s fast enough and I won’t have any interruptions as far as being on cam. I am so so excited. I can’t wait to move!

I think I’m going to have just enough boxes to pack. I love that I don’t have that much stuff.

I was getting some bud downtown and a group of construction workers were like yaaaa he’s the man! It made me laugh. 

I’m getting so much farther into my twists in yoga. Tuesday class was the hardest one I’ve ever taken. I have never been so ready to collapse onto my mat, but I really loved it. 

Being on cam was really fun today. I didn’t make a ton of money, but I had a really good time and went private with some new people. When I logged off I couldn’t even believe it had been 6 hours. I felt so energized and happy.

My latte is so fresh and delicious today. 

It’s 4/20 and I just realized I can actually post about it on social media shamelessly! I got way stoned before work. When I got in the car to get my latte Bob and Tom were singing the song about smoking weed with Willie Nelson (still funny) and when I in the car again later to go to work Don’t Fear the Reaper was on. My friends and I in high school use to sing it stoners don’t fear the reefer.

Everything about my move went fabulous. I didn’t even have to put any gas in the moving truck. I can’t believe how strong I have gotten and how light all my furniture felt compared to all my other moves.

My cat loves the house so much. He is following me everywhere and cuddling with me and smiling all the time. He loves going up and down the stairs. 

I had been keeping an eye out for a napkin holder, but decided it was a stupid thing to spend money on. When I opened my new cupboards to put some food away there was a brand new napkin holder. 

It was nice to catch up with my friend who helped me move. He genuinely wanted to help; smoked a bunch of weed with me and wanted nothing in return but to hang out with me. I’m grateful to have a friend like that.