Little Things Week 5/21/2017

I had the craziest private session on camera yet. I invited one of my guy friends over and he sat in the corner and watched me work. The crowd loved it. It was my third best night yet.

I met someone really cool in my room today. Our conversation sparked tons of ideas for being on cam.

I watched my neighbor help his friend move in. He looked super sexy carrying all that furniture.

I turned 31 and I feel really good about the year to come. I was surprised how many people wished me a happy birthday. I’m obsessed with the scent of this candle my sister got me from Hawaii.

I had a great dinner with my parents and they sat us in the Willie Nelson corner, which was totally fitting.

I heard Peaches by The Presidents of the United States of America on the radio.

I’m feeling much more comfortable on camera lately. I am ready to start studying and improving myself. I think I may finally have my scheduling about figured out as well.

I discovered Shakey Graves.

I had this dream about fucking a guy I work with, pretty great dream.

I looked out the window while I was getting ready for work and this guy was singing in his car, like really into it. He may have been rapping, I couldn’t tell. I also just remembered that I saw a guy on a motorcycle earlier this week jamming out super loud to Wobble. 

When I went in to work my co-worker had gotten me a gift certificate to my favorite coffee shop. 

I rearranged my room and added some color. It feels soooo much better in here. 

I felt amazing at yoga Wednesday despite it being my first class this week. I felt stronger than I usually do.

Happy with myself for not going home early from work and skipping yoga. 

I was out of bud and couldn’t find any and then one of my clients unexpectedly tipped me in bud!

I had to stand up for myself a lot the past couple weeks and I feel good about it for once instead of guilty. The end of my week was rough, but it all led to a big epiphany. I needed all of it.

Little Things 5/7/2017 -5/20/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life over the last two weeks:

Someone put a giant sign out by the road that says Sausage Sangwich $3.00 hahaha 

I got a $25 gift card for Kohl’s in the mail this morning.

I didn’t let the girl at the coffee shop complain to me about her allergies or all the shit other people don’t do when she’s gone. It was nice. I’m starting to feel like I’m over that place, which will really just benefit me as well.

Tuesday yoga was really nice. Hip openers this week and class was challenging, but not as difficult as it has been lately. And it was actually warm up there instead of freezing which was a really nice first.

My friends like to come over and kick it at my new house. I had a house full of people today and it was such a nice change from being cooped up in that tiny apartment where you feel like you can’t even move or relax. 

My co-worker referred to the band The Cranberries as The Raspberries. I chuckled for a good while inside.

One of my older clients and I were talking about fruit arrangements and she told me that she really only likes the balls.

I got asked out at a stoplight on the way to my friend’s house by the guy in the car next to me. I wasn’t interested, but it still made me feel good.

I’m feeling very strong and flexible at yoga lately. I notice a really huge difference in where I am now compared to last year. Things that use to be really hard feel good to me now, like binds. Boat pose use to feel impossible and today it was easy. 

Made eggs over easy for the first time in the new house and realized that its level, unlike my apartment.

Redeemed the Kohl’s gift card for a bottle of Guess Girl and with my coupons I only spend $3. 

I haven’t really had much time to write lately. This makes me happy because my life is actually getting exciting. 

Week of 4/30/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

I fell asleep early last night and I think I’m finally caught up on sleep. Feeling pretty great. β˜€οΈ 

Was sitting here thinking how I wished it would rain so I wouldn’t have to mow the grass and then a guy knocked on the door and offered to do it for $10. Hell yes.

I ordered a pizza from a new place around the corner and it came with free ranch dressing. Like the good restaurant kind.

I stood up into a bird of paradise pose at yoga for the first time. So so grateful for my Tuesday yoga teacher and how hard she pushes me. 

My cat loves his new hotel. He wants to play in in all the time, sleeps in it all day. We were playing in it today and he just passed out right in the middle. He is currently chasing a gushers wrapper back and forth behind the curtains. So many things he loves about the new house and it really makes me happy. 

My futon arrived and I had time to set it up before work. I was glad it came while I was at home so it wasn’t sitting on my porch all day in the rain. 

The sun was beaming down through the clouds this evening and you could see all these giant rays glowing. It’s hard to explain what it looked like, but it was beautiful. 

I have been using milk made by a local couple for my lattes and I only find it in a pint size at random stores around me. Well, this morning I noticed a gas station near me sells the milk and they order gallons and half gallons for customers! Finally!!

I finally have my house and all the errands that come along with moving finished!!

It was kind of hard to do this post because i had such a rough week of people taking their shit out on me and trying to make me miserable, but I am so so so grateful this week is finally over and so I can just be home with my cat and finally relax. A lot of people got blocked from my phone this week. Just don’t need it. I welcome new and more positive people into my life now. 

Vision of Love

I want to become a cam star. I love the idea of being famous online and being a normal person where I live, though I wouldn’t be opposed to something bigger. I want to have a regular clientele and I want to be on the leaderboards regularly. I would make so much money I would never worry about having enough to pay bills ever again. I will be taking care of myself like it’s my job–well it is. I will exercise, eat right, get enough sleep and always make sure I have a little time for just me. I will have time to read, study and travel. I will be able to afford regular salon appointments and I won’t mind doing my nails because I will be on hiatus from that career. And I will feel great about myself too. I will love how I look and I will have so much more energy. I will have a really fun life. Tanned from the sun and happier from actually getting to absorb some Vitamin D. I’m going to be happier than I ever thought possible while always staying true to myself. I will have a beautiful natural look that is always on point. I will always stay true to my style as well and I will have my ideal wardrobe. I will always smell of Gardenia Woods and a perfume that compliments it. I will have grown to be much more humble than I am now. I will be much wiser and have learned an invaluable amount from my new career. I won’t live here anymore and I won’t care who knows what I do for a living. I would encourage people to be open with their sexuality and accepting of other people’s. And I will always stay in the flow. In fact, I will lounge in it like a lazy river. It’s where I need to be if I am to help other’s the best I can. So may the greatness and beautiful little gifts continue to multiply. 

Week of 4/23/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

I have almost everything put away in the new house and it looks beautiful. I had this vision several months ago where I lived in a house with light wooden floors, sheer white flowing curtains and lots of natural sunlight. I have that now. 

My parents came over for dinner and I made lobster that was actually delicious. They brought my flowers that go perfectly with the theme of my breakfast nook–like in the best way. 

I finally have everything in the new house put away! I took a bath to relax afterwards and the tub is super deep and the water stays warm because it was a whirlpool tub at one point. It was so comfy I passed out.

Having time to cook and make myself dinner makes me feel so much better the next day.

I went up into a headstand by myself at yoga Tuesday. 

For the first time in weeks I woke up with nothing to do outside of my normal work day. It felt absolutely fabulous. 

My new route I take to work is through the park and its sooo gorgeous! Especially now that all of the trees are budding. 

I love watching my cat explore the new house. He is checking out all the closets and old vents. Also, his fluffy legs look adorable when he runs up and down the stairs. 

My co-workers have been feeding me delicious food all week. 

There is a place my my new house that sells a really good tiramisu.

I was not having the best day, but then I got online and had an amazing night, made a ton of money and my friend stopped over to get me high and just gave me like a dime. Wouldn’t take any money for it.

One of the local radio stations had a dj who was playing all this early 00’s rap. It was delightfully nostalgic and made me laugh. 

I love waking up to emails from flirt congratulating me on having one of my highest money making days.

Week of 4/16/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

The clouds were so big and fluffy they looked fake. It was beautiful out today in the 70’s. First time wearing shorts out this year πŸ™‚

I got a table and chairs for my breakfast nook for $20 and it’s really cute–like exactly what I was looking for. 

I found a ladybug 🐞 

Found out I get my keys to the house on Thursday! My friend who offered to help me move just happens to be off on Friday when I want to do it and is still up for it. And my internet is going to be cheaper as long as it’s fast enough and I won’t have any interruptions as far as being on cam. I am so so excited. I can’t wait to move!

I think I’m going to have just enough boxes to pack. I love that I don’t have that much stuff.

I was getting some bud downtown and a group of construction workers were like yaaaa he’s the man! It made me laugh. 

I’m getting so much farther into my twists in yoga. Tuesday class was the hardest one I’ve ever taken. I have never been so ready to collapse onto my mat, but I really loved it. 

Being on cam was really fun today. I didn’t make a ton of money, but I had a really good time and went private with some new people. When I logged off I couldn’t even believe it had been 6 hours. I felt so energized and happy.

My latte is so fresh and delicious today. 

It’s 4/20 and I just realized I can actually post about it on social media shamelessly! I got way stoned before work. When I got in the car to get my latte Bob and Tom were singing the song about smoking weed with Willie Nelson (still funny) and when I in the car again later to go to work Don’t Fear the Reaper was on. My friends and I in high school use to sing it stoners don’t fear the reefer.

Everything about my move went fabulous. I didn’t even have to put any gas in the moving truck. I can’t believe how strong I have gotten and how light all my furniture felt compared to all my other moves.

My cat loves the house so much. He is following me everywhere and cuddling with me and smiling all the time. He loves going up and down the stairs. 

I had been keeping an eye out for a napkin holder, but decided it was a stupid thing to spend money on. When I opened my new cupboards to put some food away there was a brand new napkin holder. 

It was nice to catch up with my friend who helped me move. He genuinely wanted to help; smoked a bunch of weed with me and wanted nothing in return but to hang out with me. I’m grateful to have a friend like that. 

Week of 4/9/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

I got to see my new house today and it is more than I ever could have asked for. I have everything I need to thrive; a garden, washer/dryer, dishwasher, adorable breakfast nook. It’s perfect for me.

I totally got hit on when I walked my cat today. I wasn’t attracted to her, but it was still flattering.

I have three new clients scheduled on Thursday. I have an amazing week scheduled at the salon.

I love this new gel color I have on my nails. It has been matching everything from my clothes to my yoga mat without me even trying and it’s green!

This really hot guy I’ve been checking out at the gym totally looked at me on my way in to yoga. When I was leaving afterwards I saw him again and we made eye contact.

I’ve been getting so many compliments lately on the most random things; my eyebrows, my arms, my voice, my lifestyle and even the slight redness i have to my cheeks which is something I have actually always hated. I think people are noticing my newfound confidence from being a cam model.

A really hot guy messaged me on my Twitter page (for cam) and asked me to rate him. He said it was important what I thought because I’m a model. I was so flattered. In fact, I have had quite a few very attractive men messaging me on there…

My yoga instructor commented on how dedicated I am to practicing. It felt nice.

I saved $30 on Shellac topcoat.

My cat is so fucking cute.

I’m eating out right now and my waitress smells really good.

I dropped in at my favorite yoga studio as a treat and it felt so amazing–as always. I got deeper into pigeon than I ever have before. At one point my teeth were vibrating which is not a sensation I have felt before. They’re hiring for desk yogi. I want the job so I get to take classes for free.