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Journal Entry 6/20/2017

She opens her room for the night, shoulders back sitting tall with confidence. The mood is relaxed, but with excitement. Her crown sits perfectly atop her silky hair, she is the Queen of the night. No one dares disrespect her for they will have at least a dozen men attack them at once. Her admirers surround her like a fortress, ready to give anything just to be in her presence. Her nipples press hard through her sheer bodysuit. Her look is stunning, fit and glowing with natural beauty. Her body moves before their eyes, a display of sexuality and art. Strict and sensual, she guides them through the night, filling them with pleasure and pain. Her time is pricelesss and nearly impossible to obtain. Teasing and toying with them she becomes rampant and filled with desire. She can barely take anymore as the sunrise begins to glow through her window… and that’s when it arrives. Β Her toes curl in ecstasy as they reach the moment they have all been longing for. She curls up in the mountain of pillows behind her, messy and content from her work, and her eyes flutter shut as she remembers how grateful she is to be constantly showered with gifts and love.

Vision of Love

I want to become a cam star. I love the idea of being famous online and being a normal person where I live, though I wouldn’t be opposed to something bigger. I want to have a regular clientele and I want to be on the leaderboards regularly. I would make so much money I would never worry about having enough to pay bills ever again. I will be taking care of myself like it’s my job–well it is. I will exercise, eat right, get enough sleep and always make sure I have a little time for just me. I will have time to read, study and travel. I will be able to afford regular salon appointments and I won’t mind doing my nails because I will be on hiatus from that career. And I will feel great about myself too. I will love how I look and I will have so much more energy. I will have a really fun life. Tanned from the sun and happier from actually getting to absorb some Vitamin D. I’m going to be happier than I ever thought possible while always staying true to myself. I will have a beautiful natural look that is always on point. I will always stay true to my style as well and I will have my ideal wardrobe. I will always smell of Gardenia Woods and a perfume that compliments it. I will have grown to be much more humble than I am now. I will be much wiser and have learned an invaluable amount from my new career. I won’t live here anymore and I won’t care who knows what I do for a living. I would encourage people to be open with their sexuality and accepting of other people’s. And I will always stay in the flow. In fact, I will lounge in it like a lazy river. It’s where I need to be if I am to help other’s the best I can. So may the greatness and beautiful little gifts continue to multiply. 

Journal Entry 3/14/2017

So… I’ve been hired as a web cam model and I have decided to give it a try. What this means is I will be sitting around in my room waiting for guys to buy a private show from me where I will likely do things of sexual nature on camera. Why would a beautiful, confident woman such as myself want to do such a thing!? Well, let’s see:

  1. I’m broke and have way more debt than I am okay with.
  2. I value my time (way more than the opinions of others) and despise the thought of wasting my life away at a job I hate. Money equals freedom and I want lots of money fast.
  3. I like to video chat with men from different countries in my spare time for fun.
  4. I see a lot of opportunity; to learn about myself and others, to earn money, to travel.
  5. At least I’m doing something interesting.

When I look at the other women on these sites, I have to admit they are a bit intimidating. It’s a scary idea, putting my body and my sexuality out there for everyone to judge and see. But it’s only going to be scary for a little while. I’m hoping this will result in several regular clients who enjoy my conversation even more than the sex. If I could make decent money just by maintaining a few online relationships, that would be ideal.