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Vision of Love

I want to become a cam star. I love the idea of being famous online and being a normal person where I live, though I wouldn’t be opposed to something bigger. I want to have a regular clientele and I want to be on the leaderboards regularly. I would make so much money I would never worry about having enough to pay bills ever again. I will be taking care of myself like it’s my job–well it is. I will exercise, eat right, get enough sleep and always make sure I have a little time for just me. I will have time to read, study and travel. I will be able to afford regular salon appointments and I won’t mind doing my nails because I will be on hiatus from that career. And I will feel great about myself too. I will love how I look and I will have so much more energy. I will have a really fun life. Tanned from the sun and happier from actually getting to absorb some Vitamin D. I’m going to be happier than I ever thought possible while always staying true to myself. I will have a beautiful natural look that is always on point. I will always stay true to my style as well and I will have my ideal wardrobe. I will always smell of Gardenia Woods and a perfume that compliments it. I will have grown to be much more humble than I am now. I will be much wiser and have learned an invaluable amount from my new career. I won’t live here anymore and I won’t care who knows what I do for a living. I would encourage people to be open with their sexuality and accepting of other people’s. And I will always stay in the flow. In fact, I will lounge in it like a lazy river. It’s where I need to be if I am to help other’s the best I can. So may the greatness and beautiful little gifts continue to multiply. 

Journal Entry 3/14/2017

So… I’ve been hired as a web cam model and I have decided to give it a try. What this means is I will be sitting around in my room waiting for guys to buy a private show from me where I will likely do things of sexual nature on camera. Why would a beautiful, confident woman such as myself want to do such a thing!? Well, let’s see:

  1. I’m broke and have way more debt than I am okay with.
  2. I value my time (way more than the opinions of others) and despise the thought of wasting my life away at a job I hate. Money equals freedom and I want lots of money fast.
  3. I like to video chat with men from different countries in my spare time for fun.
  4. I see a lot of opportunity; to learn about myself and others, to earn money, to travel.
  5. At least I’m doing something interesting.

When I look at the other women on these sites, I have to admit they are a bit intimidating. It’s a scary idea, putting my body and my sexuality out there for everyone to judge and see. But it’s only going to be scary for a little while. I’m hoping this will result in several regular clients who enjoy my conversation even more than the sex. If I could make decent money just by maintaining a few online relationships, that would be ideal.