I remembered this dream when I walked down to my basement yesterday. I dreamt that the basement was flooded and my mom is reminding me that I need to go down and mop it all up.
What is happiness?
- A balance of free time and working at something you love
- Having enough money for everything you need
- Finding true intellectual connection with another person
What is femininity?
- Sex apppeal: How am i sexy today?
- Loving: Who can I be loving towards today?
- Intelligence: What can/did I learn today?
I had nothing that I had to do this Monday but sleep in and relax. The weather was absolutely beautiful, perfect for opening all the windows. Really enjoying my house today.
My only Tuesday appointment at the salon cancelled and now I have an extra day to relax! The weather is soooo beautiful and my back yard looks great! All my chores are done for the week.
I ended up getting on camera Tuesday and having an amazing night, a lot like the short I had written earlier.
My cat had injured himself a couple weeks back and he is finally back to normal again. I’m so glad to see him feeling better.
It is officially summer and the days are long. I love sitting out back when I get home from work.
I made it to yoga four times this week and my body felt amazing.
Woke up in a bad mood Friday, heavy with everyone’s shit from my day job. But I napped after yoga and woke up feeling the opposite, like I got a second chance to start my day.
Had a really good night on camera Friday, got to spend time with a lot of my regulars. I love how busy my room has been since that awesome party I did last weekend.
I didn’t feel completely drained after the salon Saturday. It was nice to have one of those rare days where people actually make me feel good in the salon.
One of my clients traded me some bud for her nails and she gave it to me in an Easter egg. I have been calling her Miss Bunny now haha.
I found an amazing bra that fits me perfect and it actually sexy. I also found the perfect pillows for the living room and a really cute top.
I went to the grocery store without a bra on and made like 10 guys almost walk into a wall.
My plants are actually growing! Except the hostas, I think they are getting too much sunlight.
I realized this week that I want to quit my nail job after the summer. I am afraid, but I think I need to do it.
- New laptop $2,000
- Tatto work $2,000
- Skin care products $200
- Clothing $1,000
- Photo sessions
She opens her room for the night, shoulders back sitting tall with confidence. The mood is relaxed, but with excitement. Her crown sits perfectly atop her silky hair, she is the Queen of the night. No one dares disrespect her for they will have at least a dozen men attack them at once. Her admirers surround her like a fortress, ready to give anything just to be in her presence. Her nipples press hard through her sheer bodysuit. Her look is stunning, fit and glowing with natural beauty. Her body moves before their eyes, a display of sexuality and art. Strict and sensual, she guides them through the night, filling them with pleasure and pain. Her time is pricelesss and nearly impossible to obtain. Teasing and toying with them she becomes rampant and filled with desire. She can barely take anymore as the sunrise begins to glow through her window… and that’s when he arrives. To take her away from them all. The only one who sees her deep inside, she can’t hide from him. This fills her with fear and discomfort, but that’s why she loves him–why he excites her. He knows exactly how to release everything built up inside her from the night. One of the many ways he loves to spoil his Queen. Her toes curl in ecstasy as they both reach the moment they have been longing for. He showers her with gifts and love as she curls up in the mountain of pillows behind her and her eyes flutter shut. He loves to watch her fall asleep, messy and exhausted from her work. And so ends the hot summer night, filled with sweat and satisfaction.
I don’t remember the beginning of the dream, but I had a fight with one of my friends and I felt she owed me an apology. She shows up at my door and when I open it she walks up close to me. The background kind of fades around her and she say I’m sorry right before she jams a syringe the size of a turkey baster hard into my stomach and I have no idea what she is injecting me with. My stomach is cramping and I say, “What are you doing, what is that?” I’m standing there holding my stomach, it’s starting to hurt really bad and then I wake up.
A bit late with this post, sorry guys! It’s been a busy weekend and I needed some extra time to recover.
I squirted! I knew I could do it.
One of my cam clients wrote me a poem, which is sweet in itself, but when I read it I was actually blown away. It was the most beautifully accurate description of me, I could see how much thought actually went into it. He sees the rainbow inside me.
Finally cleared the air about the dogs in the salon issue. I win. No dogs.
I noticed an important pattern in my behavior this morning when I started my period early. Before I get my period I spend money like crazy. Must find better way to regulate brain chemistry.
Cleared the air about my “friend” taking my soundbar and lying about buying my tv and stand, which was the deal for me giving it to her. She will be returning it tomorrow and I feel much better now.
I am realizing that I need to speak up when people try to do me wrong and not back down when they try to lie their way out of it either. I had a huge epiphany for the next part of my sleeve after all the annoying things that happened this week. I love seeing the reason for it all 🙂
One of my nail clients said that during her appointment she was able to talk about the recent death in her family and actually cry. I said I was flattered she felt comfortable enough with me to let go and her response was so touching. She said, “Come on, have you met you?!”
I had my best day on camera Friday, and then i topped that day on Sunday! And I got 4 new badges from the site, which are like little milestones. It’s happening and I am present to witness and enjoy it!
I met someone in my room who is actually really awesome and attractive. Weird amount of things in common with me….
When I started camming, I felt that I needed my nail job as a “reality check” because being on felt like such a different world to me. But really, I was just afraid of how much better my life can be. Now I feel like being on camera is where I belong and the salon is this place I am transitioning out of 🙂