Week of 3/26/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

My new coworker and I have the same favorite radio station. For the first time in my nail career I will not be tortured with hits from the 80’s!!

Frank called to let me know everything is on schedule with the new house and I should be able to see it this weekend.

I bought a new vacuum cleaner. I no longer have to sweep in 5 minute increments, I can do the whole room and it doesn’t shut off! Oh, and it actually picks up cat hair. Glorious.

I polished my nails my favorite red, so much happiness.

I feel so strong at yoga this week. I no longer struggle to do a chaturanga throughout the entire practice. My hips feel much more open since I started camming.

Starting to pack a little. Anything I haven’t used since I moved into this apartment is getting donated. Best feeling ever.

Spring weather all week long. The air smells so delicious.  🌷

I may have found a way to eliminate some of my credit debt. I hope it works and actually improves my situation.

I printed some nice pictures of Bettie Page to hang in my room. I am largely inspired by her.

I did a lot of really pretty manicures this week. Lots of nail art.

Thunderstorms all night, so lovely.

I feel so good about the work I am doing right now. Both of my jobs make me feel good about myself and I actually enjoy them.

I finished a box of remover wraps at the salon and had exactly the right amount left.

I was so busy at the salon this week I barely had time to cam.

I hit 200 favorites on Flirt!

I had eggs and rice for dinner and it was exactly what I wanted.

I took my cat for a walk and he was so sweet and well behaved. He’s been really sweet lately, even cuddling with me a little 🙂

I got a message from another cam site wanting to recruit me on Twitter. They said my look will be successful. I know they reach out to lots of people, but it still felt cool.

I found a really cute outfit to wear Saturday night and it looked perfect even though it was too small. My fans all liked it.

I haven’t sat around my apartment bored since I started camming. It feels so much better. My life is so much better. I am growing in a wonderful way.

Journal Entry 3/14/2017

So… I’ve been hired as a web cam model and I have decided to give it a try. What this means is I will be sitting around in my room waiting for guys to buy a private show from me where I will likely do things of sexual nature on camera. Why would a beautiful, confident woman such as myself want to do such a thing!? Well, let’s see:

  1. I’m broke and have way more debt than I am okay with.
  2. I value my time (way more than the opinions of others) and despise the thought of wasting my life away at a job I hate. Money equals freedom and I want lots of money fast.
  3. I like to video chat with men from different countries in my spare time for fun.
  4. I see a lot of opportunity; to learn about myself and others, to earn money, to travel.
  5. At least I’m doing something interesting.

When I look at the other women on these sites, I have to admit they are a bit intimidating. It’s a scary idea, putting my body and my sexuality out there for everyone to judge and see. But it’s only going to be scary for a little while. I’m hoping this will result in several regular clients who enjoy my conversation even more than the sex. If I could make decent money just by maintaining a few online relationships, that would be ideal.

Goals

If I am ever going to get what I want, I should probably define what exactly that is. I’m not entirely sure actually, but here are the parts I am sure of:

I want to travel. I want to see as much of the world as I can and have friends in many countries. I want to meet people that I can connect with on a deep and intellectual level. I want to experience other cultures.

I want to be with a man who truly values and wants to be loyal to me. He should enhance who I am as a person without needing me to complete him and be able to respect my independence. We will be insanely attracted to each other. I want to be seen as a person rather than a possession and to really be loved. I want to love someone more than myself.

I want to have a lot of money. I don’t want to worry about money ever again.

I want to own a home within driving distance to the ocean. I love the ocean and I must live near it.

I want to be healthy and feel good about the way I look.

I want to have a great job. I want to wake up excited for my work because I am doing what I love and what I love is actually profitable.

I always want to be working towards being the best me I can be and accepting all of the flaws that are my unique perfection. I want to achieve a total acceptance of who I am naturally.

Most importantly, if these things don’t make me happy I want to find what does.

Week of 3/5/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

I wasn’t planning to do errands, but I ended up checking three things off my to do list just because I felt like doing them.

I was driving to my friend’s house and I saw a car that was salmon color and another that was periwinkle on the way there.

I talked to the man who rents my friend her house and he has one available next month for $60 less than I pay for my shitty apartment. With utilities I will pay slightly more than I do now when I’m using heat, but it’s well worth it for the deal he is offering. The best part, there is a fenced in yard so I can let my cat play outside!

My cat just yawned and meowed at the same time. It was adorable.

Tuesday yoga class was extra challenging and it felt amazing. I love this teacher because she pushes me to advance my personal practice. I can almost do a headstand now! After class one of the girls commented on how strong my core got, which was nice because I hadn’t thought about it that way.

I have never been so happy to go to the grocery store. Feels great to have a kitchen filled with healthy foods and cook.

So far, I have only lost one client in my transition to the new salon and it was due to distance. She called me today to tell me how much she enjoyed coming to me and will I please text her still and keep in touch because she really likes me. I was flattered.

I felt very strong at yoga this morning. I didn’t have to modify my chaturanga at all for the first time because my arms didn’t feel tired.

My cat looks so cute bringing me the string from my pajama pants to play with.

The snow and scraping my car has not made me angry this year like it use to.

I booked some extra appointments this week by texting people I hadn’t seen in a while.

My client told me this morning that she thought my website was made by the company I buy my products from because it looked so professional!

An adorable little boy in a shopping cart riding past my and I at TJ Maxx gave us each a high five and a fist bump. So cute.

Week of 2/26/2017

The universe is limitless, abundant and strangely accommodating. When I direct my attention toward the good things in my life, even better things start to happen. These were the good things in my life this week:

I’ve gotten so good at duplicating Starbucks vanilla lattes that I have no desire to even go there anymore.

I updated my salon  website information and design and I love it.  It’s so pretty and me– I can’t stop staring at it..

I have noticed how much joy my cat actually brings me. He makes me laugh, smile and feel loved every day.

A contestant from the television show Nail’d It called me for an interview and said she likes my resume and I am what she is looking for! I am happy with my new job, but I hope we end up working together someday. I think she would be a great mentor.

I saw a car that was purple and blue ombre.

Salad kits are one of the best inventions ever.

I saw a license plate that said URTHE1.

I love when I take a really funny picture on snap chat and just sit here and laugh by myself at how funny it is before I send it.

My first day at the new salon my phone blew up with people texting for appointments and I ended up making pretty good money just by being there.

I wore a pair of jeggings that I usually don’t wear because they’re tight in the waist and felt amazing in them all day. My legs and ass looked great

I treated myself to some more Gardenia Woods lotion and bath salts. I took a really nice bath after work and my skin feels really good.

I made it to yoga after work for the first time in months. I had forgotten how relieving it feels to practice after a long day.

I had been thinking about how I wanted to get a plastic to go cup for my iced coffees and one of my clients randomly brought me one…and some delicious chocolate dipped apples.

I have thoroughly enjoyed my first day off all week; slept in, sipped a latte and played with my blogs, sushi, light yoga at home and a hot bath.